3 pillars
I have 3 pillars in my life that keep me from acting a fool but all 3 of them have falling horribly and the only thing that keeps that from falling completely is not seeing eye to eye w/me. Rather it my fault or someone else's it comes down to the same conclusion. My life's been based on 3 basic things my family, basketball, and my other friends. My family is jacked as I have previously stated after 20 some freaking years. Basketball is basically out of the question at least playing wise, no one knows what to tell me except ask if i'm coaching, And after being totally excited about my last yr and where I was living I've come to an abrupt stop that everyone here hates me from some reason or another and I hate living here.
And after I have been so honest w/some people it has come back to smack me in the face to tell me that I should have just lied and that doesn't work either. What I expect and what I get are 2 different things and depending on the day depends what response I get. AHHH. There is no way to truely describe it. No one ever gets the entire or true story but takes bits and peices and creates their own OR knowing that they only get part creates an anomosity btw people instead of them seeing the entire conversations that would change thoughts. People forget too that their prior acts and thoughts help to create these differences btw each other.
There is someone above that likes to see me get disappointed and wants to see me in my worst......
And after I have been so honest w/some people it has come back to smack me in the face to tell me that I should have just lied and that doesn't work either. What I expect and what I get are 2 different things and depending on the day depends what response I get. AHHH. There is no way to truely describe it. No one ever gets the entire or true story but takes bits and peices and creates their own OR knowing that they only get part creates an anomosity btw people instead of them seeing the entire conversations that would change thoughts. People forget too that their prior acts and thoughts help to create these differences btw each other.
There is someone above that likes to see me get disappointed and wants to see me in my worst......