let's make things worse
TODAY JUST SUCKED. then end. ok not really the end. but today has sucked from the weee hours of the morning when i kept waking up randomly & couldnt fall back to sleep. then on my way to school this guy just cuts over into my lane in the middle of the intersection and pushed me into the bike lane (i get ticked really easily when people drive stupidly). the school day itself was okay besides our englist lit assignment on the book we are reading in our groups. lets just say no one seems to have gotten past page 20 and we're supposed to be at least half done by now. so we made stuff up. go us. more like go me cause i basically did the whole thing except one of the members of my group wrote what i said. yipee.
i was so excited for tonight cause i was going to watch Disturbia with Trisha, Marci, and Karlie (and i think Eirynne was coming too). i can't even remember the last time i went out with Marci so i was happy bout that. then we were getting all excited in the hall during passing period earlier today. but first, me, karlie and eirynne wanted to check out the Refuge Project at our school. it's for the Invisible Children in Uganda. They were showing the documentary about it and i was curious to see it and know more. if you guys get a chance, go to InvisibleChildren.com to read more or to help. our originaly plan was to leave during the movie in order to make it to the theater on time, but we never did. then the movie put us all in a sad mood so karlie & eirynne didn't want to see disturbia anymore. i needed something to snap me out of it. so i drove there and stood outside the theater for a good 20 minutes at least trying to call Trisha & Marci each at least 3 times. i didn't want to buy a ticket and then not be able to find them, especially when it was already 30 minutes into a 1hr 45 min movie (i asked the dude in the front). i debated with myself whether to get the ticket or not. i chose not. which i later regreted but who knows if i would of ever found them or not *Shrugs* after that i was even more depressed so i just drove around for a bit til i finally had to find a parking lot to try to calm down in cause i couldn't go home like that. people would be like "how was the movie?" and i woulda lost it. so instead, i lost it in the car. it started raining again, so i stood out in it for at least 20 minutes. i think the other people at the resturant thought i was nuts. i dont care, i like rain. it relaxes me. and driving usually does, except when i find an idiot (guess what, i found another on the way home -_- though not one like this morning). idk why i got so worked up over not seeing the movie. yeah i was waiting for the end of the week to come so i could go see it, but seriously, who gets that emotional over not being able to see a movie?! i guess its cause i was happy i was going to be hanging out with Marci & Trisha. i dont see Marci often and she's one of the first friends i had when i moved here and i don't see/hang out with Trisha as much as i used/would like to. then graduation set in recently making me realize i wont be seeing a lot of people again, or at least for a long time. its hard keeping in touch with people, i tried when i moved from CT and it still seems hard. then stupid me, when i realized i wasn't going to be watching the movie i was like "i'll just go see if Ant wants to do anything tonight." then realization hit again, of course my brother is still in CT. ugh. that brought on a whole new wave. that thought was just so natural it just came out. i was in that parking lot for a good hour, yet when i got home my mom could tell right away. tis kind of annoying she can tell even after i make sure my eyes aren't all bloodshot and crap. at least she didn't pry like she does sometimes. oh and it's also almost "that time of the month" *rolls eyes* which i always get SUPER emotional around (i hate it -_-).
so now? i want to sleep. cause this weekend is full of hw and cleaning & etc. and next week is midterms and major tests & projects due and giving blood on monday. i have a rare blood type so i figured i should do it.
i swear i'll make a happy post eventually. just not tonight.
i was so excited for tonight cause i was going to watch Disturbia with Trisha, Marci, and Karlie (and i think Eirynne was coming too). i can't even remember the last time i went out with Marci so i was happy bout that. then we were getting all excited in the hall during passing period earlier today. but first, me, karlie and eirynne wanted to check out the Refuge Project at our school. it's for the Invisible Children in Uganda. They were showing the documentary about it and i was curious to see it and know more. if you guys get a chance, go to InvisibleChildren.com to read more or to help. our originaly plan was to leave during the movie in order to make it to the theater on time, but we never did. then the movie put us all in a sad mood so karlie & eirynne didn't want to see disturbia anymore. i needed something to snap me out of it. so i drove there and stood outside the theater for a good 20 minutes at least trying to call Trisha & Marci each at least 3 times. i didn't want to buy a ticket and then not be able to find them, especially when it was already 30 minutes into a 1hr 45 min movie (i asked the dude in the front). i debated with myself whether to get the ticket or not. i chose not. which i later regreted but who knows if i would of ever found them or not *Shrugs* after that i was even more depressed so i just drove around for a bit til i finally had to find a parking lot to try to calm down in cause i couldn't go home like that. people would be like "how was the movie?" and i woulda lost it. so instead, i lost it in the car. it started raining again, so i stood out in it for at least 20 minutes. i think the other people at the resturant thought i was nuts. i dont care, i like rain. it relaxes me. and driving usually does, except when i find an idiot (guess what, i found another on the way home -_- though not one like this morning). idk why i got so worked up over not seeing the movie. yeah i was waiting for the end of the week to come so i could go see it, but seriously, who gets that emotional over not being able to see a movie?! i guess its cause i was happy i was going to be hanging out with Marci & Trisha. i dont see Marci often and she's one of the first friends i had when i moved here and i don't see/hang out with Trisha as much as i used/would like to. then graduation set in recently making me realize i wont be seeing a lot of people again, or at least for a long time. its hard keeping in touch with people, i tried when i moved from CT and it still seems hard. then stupid me, when i realized i wasn't going to be watching the movie i was like "i'll just go see if Ant wants to do anything tonight." then realization hit again, of course my brother is still in CT. ugh. that brought on a whole new wave. that thought was just so natural it just came out. i was in that parking lot for a good hour, yet when i got home my mom could tell right away. tis kind of annoying she can tell even after i make sure my eyes aren't all bloodshot and crap. at least she didn't pry like she does sometimes. oh and it's also almost "that time of the month" *rolls eyes* which i always get SUPER emotional around (i hate it -_-).
so now? i want to sleep. cause this weekend is full of hw and cleaning & etc. and next week is midterms and major tests & projects due and giving blood on monday. i have a rare blood type so i figured i should do it.
i swear i'll make a happy post eventually. just not tonight.