Old fashioned style Journal rant!!!
Wow this site is still here, I wonder how long it will last? I mean nothing is infinate, how long can my ramblings stay in the archives? eventually it will all be deleted when they run out of web space or the site gets more unpopular. 5 years? 10 years? 20 years? 100 years? who knows? I guess one day i'll think "remember that live journal website, lets see if its still there" then i'll search for it and it wont be there or somebody will be eating a timeout in my gateway.
Well since I'm here, I better actually write about things. Well hmmm yeah, I said I'd only write on here if anything major happens since it was getting same old same old with work, Leanne, car boot sales, etc etc even I dont wanna hear about that anymore.
One major thing, was Leanne getting kicked out of her house by her wonderful mum. I've always respected (Leannes mum) and can understand what she is thinking but in my book bottom line is you dont kick your 17 year old daughter out on the street just because there are a few rows. Attitude problems or whatever, it's all part of having a kid, you deal with it, sort it out, find ways around it, and even put up with it because at the end of the day it's your kid and if they aint acting the way you want at 17 you have to share some of the responsibility of that as a parent. And from an outsider looking in, its pretty clear why Leanne is how she is, and can have an attitude ... thats the kind of house she's been raised in, her mum and Ricky both have an attitude too, all 3 of them snap, all 3 of them shout, all 3 of them can lose their temper, all 3 of them think theyre are right most of the time, not saying there is anything wrong with it, a lot of families are like that, we can all walk around with an attitude sometimes and get in arguments with the family we live with. Maybe the arguements in their house were getting bad, but that (in my opinion) is because of financial stresses, which were the center of most rows, again it isnt Leannes fault her mum has got herself in that situation, which leads to rows. Leanne isnt exactly some violent druggy who brings dodgy blokes back (other than me lol ) ... seriously though, there are so many screwed up people who do all sorts of things at Leannes age, she is working, she has paid her mum £210 rent every month since they moved to the new house, she doesnt bring trouble home, she doesnt, drink do drugs or smoke ... she can just loose her rag or answer back sometimes, jeeeeeeeez if every mother threw their kid on the street for that there would be no room to walk on the streets!!! shes 17 nearly 18 for fucks sake, she isnt gonna act like that forever. Just think actually throwing her out is shocking, and I told her that myself on the phone, she knows exactly what I think of it. I gotta think the only reason she did it because she doesnt want to have Leanne at home when she is 18, she wants to live somewhere cheap on her own so is hoping I will take care of Leanne, that is the only rational reason for it, which again I think is shocking because it forces me into a situation where if I wanna be with Leanne I HAVE to move in with her within the next year, that is a situation I dont wanna be in, and it pisses me off that we are in this situation when Leanne should have a safe home and we decide to move in together when the time is right, its fucked up if you ask me. Plus dont get me started on Ricky's so called girlfriend, cant believe Leanne mum who has said how much she dont like Sam in the past can just take her side over her own daughters!!! I dont care if Sam had moved in and is paying rent, just like I do when Im there, if there is a family argument and you aint part of that family, STAY THE FUCK OUT OF IT ... for fucks sake, if some outsiders had seen some of the rows with me and my mum over the years they probably would of knocked me out just on the grounds of "you dont talk to your mum like that" and Im sure if I'd heard other family arguments I'd feel the same, at the end of the day its a domestic, Leanne called Ricky "ugly" ... ok not nice, but they are brother and sister ffs let them sort it out, but Sam has to literally run at Leanne with intent of hitting her no doubt, lucky she got held back ... and then later when Leanne left with her bags, not only do they all go out after and taunt her with childish remarks, but Sam gets violent again ... grabbed Leannes face and choked her with the strap of her bag ... I wasnt there granted, and from what I hear I dont know if Sam was trying to be violent, or if it was her TWISTED way of trying to sort things out by "trying to get Leanne to see reason" ... at the end of the day 1)stay out of it 2) when somebody is that angry or emotional DONT FUCKING PUT YOUR HANDS ON THEM ... I never liked that girl anyway, not just the fact that she blatantly is a theif and does ASDA over for £100's every time she goes in there (with no shame, she lets us all watch, loves the attention) but also since she got with Ricky she's done nothing but fuck with his head, this is why Leanne doesnt like her, nor did her mum. First there was the lesbian love triangle with Amanda, Ricky having to fight for her attention with her ALWAYS hanging about EVERY time they saw each other, plus Sam had admitted a sexual relationship with Amanda, ok so they just got together then so things will get better when Amanda is off the scene? guess again, Sam then gets friendly with her husband, yes shes still married but seperated ... so he's hanging about and shes hugging and kissing him in front of Ricky and inviting him everywhere ... the excuse here is that he's her childs dad and was lonely, but Ricky being so Niave and smitten just goes along with it not knowing if they are just friends or together as it changed week on week ... during that time, she manages to create something with one of Rickys friends where she nearly gets with this other guy even though that guy has a kid and is living with the kids mother, she somehow gets away with all that and kissing said other guy ... then after a few weeks of on/off .. moves in with Ricky, Leanne and Kay ... god how desperate can you get for rent money that you have to her move in ffs ... but of course attention seeking Sam will get bored so last I heard some woman from Birmingham that Sam met online was coming down a few times a week with her daughter, spending loads of time in Kays house including sleeping over (another reason Leanne had an attitude, not only did Sam move in, not only was Leanne paying more rent than Ricky or Sam, but had to put up with Sams friends coming down all the time) ... by the way, this woman from birmingham had short hair, tattoos, piercings, and wore a leather jacket ... now I aint stereotyping lesbians or anything ... but come on, with Sams history of relationships with women, why else would somebody come down from BIRMINGHAM a few times a week ... god dammit, how can anybody not even be a bit suspicious, I got no proof on that one it dont take Einstien to figure out what that was all about. Then after I had sorted Leanne a place to stay, Leannes mum was texting me saying she wanted to fix things with Leanne? what the fuck, you do that before you chuck somebody out! but I told her Leanne wouldnt be coming home as long as Sam was there because of her violent behaviour towards her ... firstly, that was a private text to Kay, and should of been read by Sam, secondly I was telling Kay what Leanne told me ... I aint gonna lie, thats the reason Leanne wouldnt go back, and I dont blame her I wouldnt wanna live with a violent, drug taking theif that fucks her brother about! but Sam somehow hears what I said then starts sending a tirade of abuse at my phone, and 2 classic lines from them that shows what a deluded screwed up girl she is "Me and Ricky are better than you and Leanne" ie ... saying they have the better relationship? hmmmm Ive been with Leanne nearly 2 years, we havent split up ONCE ... not even for a day, sure we argue, but why should splitting up be mentioned because of that? it never has been, we trust each other, there have never been any issues with outside love interests etc ... the mind boggles, she defo has smoked too much weed that girl ... and another line trying to randomly slur me with "with all that debt your in" I just have no explanation for that, Ive always been a worker and a saver, and have never needed a loan in my life. Well you know what, although I never used to speak to her much (because I didnt like her even before all this) it wasnt my place to say anything, I liked Ricky and still do he's a great guy ... and I didnt like the way she fucked him about, but he had enough of his mum and Leanne telling him not to bother with her, I didnt want to be another nagging voice, so I would just try and offer neautral advice when he asked about things ... but since she started texting all that bollocks, I took great pleasure in telling her what I thought of her! her behaviour smacks of an insecure little girl desperatly craving attention, always has to be something going on, a crisis, a panic, a love triangle, an on off/relationship a phone call JUST SIT THE FUCK DOWN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND WATCH TV YOU IDIOT! ... plus my god, Ive never heard somebody sound so insincere in my life, it was almost like she was being sarcastic when giving sympathy to somebody, just something very untrustworty about that girl, I hope Ricky can find somebody he deserves and not put up with that trash!
Woooohooooooooo did you like it? just for old times sake, I thought I'd do a little rant :D ... none of it was actually true ... only joking, its all true ,, have no idea why I said all that, but thats what I tend to do on here, its as if nobody is listening I can just write and write and its good to get stuff off my chest!
Anyway, where was I (its not over yet, one must conclude) ... I got a few things off my chest with Ricky on the phone, and I think were ok now although obviously aint seen him much since Leanne aint living there no more, but he went through a tough time, I dont even know if he's still with Sam but judging by how depressed he was when I texted him the other week I would guess its something to do with her. Spoke to Kay on the phone, nothing really got sorted, she got her opinions, I got mine, it's her house, she wins ... so yeah obviously was civil with her when I spoke to her and saw her for Leannes sake ...
Anyway things have worked out for the better, Leanne stayed with Rischenda for a week or so then Leanne moved in with me, shes been here over a month now ... and its great, we see each other more and dont have to pick her up anymore lol we get plenty of space coz shes up early for work, and I leave for work just before she gets home so only see her for an hour or so when I get in from work at 1am ... Fridays I can pick her up from work and spend an hour together coz I dont have to be in until 6, so things are going well ... she was using my sisters room as a spare room, coz of our sleeping patterns coz of work hours we gotta sleep seperatly coz I cant sleep until after 3am sometimes later coz it takes me time to wind down after work, so she would disturb me getting up at 6am ... but theres always weekends ;) ... our work hours wont always be so fucked up in terms of seeing each other in the week coz when Ive been driving 2 years (this may) I will probably go on the vans at work which means I'd be doing proper night shifts so wont have to be win work until about midnight, so we can have our evenings then.
We went to London for valentines, had a meal and saw chicago, we both love the film ... was a great show (I love ya hunni, I love ya) and really romantic setting for the meal with baloons and nice and cosy, enjoyed the drive as well, got up to over 100 lol only for a while though, was pretty nervous about it before coz the furthest Ive drove is Brean, but it was ok, only over 100 miles of high speed driving, had a stop each way though, including an overnight one in the travel lodge in Reading. Expensive trip but well worth it, and wanted the experience of a long driving trip so glad we did it. Was a really memorable day!!! even if the traffic in London was god awful, my sat nav was playing up and I got a £60 fine for not payign congestion charge lol, all worth it!!!
Speaking of valentines I played a joke on my work mate. He rang me at 4am one saturday morning pretending to be some asian dude who bought a rusty saucepan from my carboot lol! he's one crazy guy ... I told him I would get him back so I did. Sent him a mystery valentines, put my old phone number in it, me and Leanne had fun texting him some flirty stuff lol ... I gave him loads of clues like heat me up, lets get saucy etc my best one was "superabundabce carries no burden" ... superabundance minus burden is an anagram of saucepan lol and when we met him Leanne gave him a brand new saucepan I bought lolol goos job he got a sence of humour, we invited him to Leannes 18th birthday which is shaping up to be a good night, Leanne got quite a lot of people going from her college and work plus richenda ... so were looking forward to a good night in town, will be fun seeing her get served at the bar lol
Well since I'm here, I better actually write about things. Well hmmm yeah, I said I'd only write on here if anything major happens since it was getting same old same old with work, Leanne, car boot sales, etc etc even I dont wanna hear about that anymore.
One major thing, was Leanne getting kicked out of her house by her wonderful mum. I've always respected (Leannes mum) and can understand what she is thinking but in my book bottom line is you dont kick your 17 year old daughter out on the street just because there are a few rows. Attitude problems or whatever, it's all part of having a kid, you deal with it, sort it out, find ways around it, and even put up with it because at the end of the day it's your kid and if they aint acting the way you want at 17 you have to share some of the responsibility of that as a parent. And from an outsider looking in, its pretty clear why Leanne is how she is, and can have an attitude ... thats the kind of house she's been raised in, her mum and Ricky both have an attitude too, all 3 of them snap, all 3 of them shout, all 3 of them can lose their temper, all 3 of them think theyre are right most of the time, not saying there is anything wrong with it, a lot of families are like that, we can all walk around with an attitude sometimes and get in arguments with the family we live with. Maybe the arguements in their house were getting bad, but that (in my opinion) is because of financial stresses, which were the center of most rows, again it isnt Leannes fault her mum has got herself in that situation, which leads to rows. Leanne isnt exactly some violent druggy who brings dodgy blokes back (other than me lol ) ... seriously though, there are so many screwed up people who do all sorts of things at Leannes age, she is working, she has paid her mum £210 rent every month since they moved to the new house, she doesnt bring trouble home, she doesnt, drink do drugs or smoke ... she can just loose her rag or answer back sometimes, jeeeeeeeez if every mother threw their kid on the street for that there would be no room to walk on the streets!!! shes 17 nearly 18 for fucks sake, she isnt gonna act like that forever. Just think actually throwing her out is shocking, and I told her that myself on the phone, she knows exactly what I think of it. I gotta think the only reason she did it because she doesnt want to have Leanne at home when she is 18, she wants to live somewhere cheap on her own so is hoping I will take care of Leanne, that is the only rational reason for it, which again I think is shocking because it forces me into a situation where if I wanna be with Leanne I HAVE to move in with her within the next year, that is a situation I dont wanna be in, and it pisses me off that we are in this situation when Leanne should have a safe home and we decide to move in together when the time is right, its fucked up if you ask me. Plus dont get me started on Ricky's so called girlfriend, cant believe Leanne mum who has said how much she dont like Sam in the past can just take her side over her own daughters!!! I dont care if Sam had moved in and is paying rent, just like I do when Im there, if there is a family argument and you aint part of that family, STAY THE FUCK OUT OF IT ... for fucks sake, if some outsiders had seen some of the rows with me and my mum over the years they probably would of knocked me out just on the grounds of "you dont talk to your mum like that" and Im sure if I'd heard other family arguments I'd feel the same, at the end of the day its a domestic, Leanne called Ricky "ugly" ... ok not nice, but they are brother and sister ffs let them sort it out, but Sam has to literally run at Leanne with intent of hitting her no doubt, lucky she got held back ... and then later when Leanne left with her bags, not only do they all go out after and taunt her with childish remarks, but Sam gets violent again ... grabbed Leannes face and choked her with the strap of her bag ... I wasnt there granted, and from what I hear I dont know if Sam was trying to be violent, or if it was her TWISTED way of trying to sort things out by "trying to get Leanne to see reason" ... at the end of the day 1)stay out of it 2) when somebody is that angry or emotional DONT FUCKING PUT YOUR HANDS ON THEM ... I never liked that girl anyway, not just the fact that she blatantly is a theif and does ASDA over for £100's every time she goes in there (with no shame, she lets us all watch, loves the attention) but also since she got with Ricky she's done nothing but fuck with his head, this is why Leanne doesnt like her, nor did her mum. First there was the lesbian love triangle with Amanda, Ricky having to fight for her attention with her ALWAYS hanging about EVERY time they saw each other, plus Sam had admitted a sexual relationship with Amanda, ok so they just got together then so things will get better when Amanda is off the scene? guess again, Sam then gets friendly with her husband, yes shes still married but seperated ... so he's hanging about and shes hugging and kissing him in front of Ricky and inviting him everywhere ... the excuse here is that he's her childs dad and was lonely, but Ricky being so Niave and smitten just goes along with it not knowing if they are just friends or together as it changed week on week ... during that time, she manages to create something with one of Rickys friends where she nearly gets with this other guy even though that guy has a kid and is living with the kids mother, she somehow gets away with all that and kissing said other guy ... then after a few weeks of on/off .. moves in with Ricky, Leanne and Kay ... god how desperate can you get for rent money that you have to her move in ffs ... but of course attention seeking Sam will get bored so last I heard some woman from Birmingham that Sam met online was coming down a few times a week with her daughter, spending loads of time in Kays house including sleeping over (another reason Leanne had an attitude, not only did Sam move in, not only was Leanne paying more rent than Ricky or Sam, but had to put up with Sams friends coming down all the time) ... by the way, this woman from birmingham had short hair, tattoos, piercings, and wore a leather jacket ... now I aint stereotyping lesbians or anything ... but come on, with Sams history of relationships with women, why else would somebody come down from BIRMINGHAM a few times a week ... god dammit, how can anybody not even be a bit suspicious, I got no proof on that one it dont take Einstien to figure out what that was all about. Then after I had sorted Leanne a place to stay, Leannes mum was texting me saying she wanted to fix things with Leanne? what the fuck, you do that before you chuck somebody out! but I told her Leanne wouldnt be coming home as long as Sam was there because of her violent behaviour towards her ... firstly, that was a private text to Kay, and should of been read by Sam, secondly I was telling Kay what Leanne told me ... I aint gonna lie, thats the reason Leanne wouldnt go back, and I dont blame her I wouldnt wanna live with a violent, drug taking theif that fucks her brother about! but Sam somehow hears what I said then starts sending a tirade of abuse at my phone, and 2 classic lines from them that shows what a deluded screwed up girl she is "Me and Ricky are better than you and Leanne" ie ... saying they have the better relationship? hmmmm Ive been with Leanne nearly 2 years, we havent split up ONCE ... not even for a day, sure we argue, but why should splitting up be mentioned because of that? it never has been, we trust each other, there have never been any issues with outside love interests etc ... the mind boggles, she defo has smoked too much weed that girl ... and another line trying to randomly slur me with "with all that debt your in" I just have no explanation for that, Ive always been a worker and a saver, and have never needed a loan in my life. Well you know what, although I never used to speak to her much (because I didnt like her even before all this) it wasnt my place to say anything, I liked Ricky and still do he's a great guy ... and I didnt like the way she fucked him about, but he had enough of his mum and Leanne telling him not to bother with her, I didnt want to be another nagging voice, so I would just try and offer neautral advice when he asked about things ... but since she started texting all that bollocks, I took great pleasure in telling her what I thought of her! her behaviour smacks of an insecure little girl desperatly craving attention, always has to be something going on, a crisis, a panic, a love triangle, an on off/relationship a phone call JUST SIT THE FUCK DOWN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND WATCH TV YOU IDIOT! ... plus my god, Ive never heard somebody sound so insincere in my life, it was almost like she was being sarcastic when giving sympathy to somebody, just something very untrustworty about that girl, I hope Ricky can find somebody he deserves and not put up with that trash!
Woooohooooooooo did you like it? just for old times sake, I thought I'd do a little rant :D ... none of it was actually true ... only joking, its all true ,, have no idea why I said all that, but thats what I tend to do on here, its as if nobody is listening I can just write and write and its good to get stuff off my chest!
Anyway, where was I (its not over yet, one must conclude) ... I got a few things off my chest with Ricky on the phone, and I think were ok now although obviously aint seen him much since Leanne aint living there no more, but he went through a tough time, I dont even know if he's still with Sam but judging by how depressed he was when I texted him the other week I would guess its something to do with her. Spoke to Kay on the phone, nothing really got sorted, she got her opinions, I got mine, it's her house, she wins ... so yeah obviously was civil with her when I spoke to her and saw her for Leannes sake ...
Anyway things have worked out for the better, Leanne stayed with Rischenda for a week or so then Leanne moved in with me, shes been here over a month now ... and its great, we see each other more and dont have to pick her up anymore lol we get plenty of space coz shes up early for work, and I leave for work just before she gets home so only see her for an hour or so when I get in from work at 1am ... Fridays I can pick her up from work and spend an hour together coz I dont have to be in until 6, so things are going well ... she was using my sisters room as a spare room, coz of our sleeping patterns coz of work hours we gotta sleep seperatly coz I cant sleep until after 3am sometimes later coz it takes me time to wind down after work, so she would disturb me getting up at 6am ... but theres always weekends ;) ... our work hours wont always be so fucked up in terms of seeing each other in the week coz when Ive been driving 2 years (this may) I will probably go on the vans at work which means I'd be doing proper night shifts so wont have to be win work until about midnight, so we can have our evenings then.
We went to London for valentines, had a meal and saw chicago, we both love the film ... was a great show (I love ya hunni, I love ya) and really romantic setting for the meal with baloons and nice and cosy, enjoyed the drive as well, got up to over 100 lol only for a while though, was pretty nervous about it before coz the furthest Ive drove is Brean, but it was ok, only over 100 miles of high speed driving, had a stop each way though, including an overnight one in the travel lodge in Reading. Expensive trip but well worth it, and wanted the experience of a long driving trip so glad we did it. Was a really memorable day!!! even if the traffic in London was god awful, my sat nav was playing up and I got a £60 fine for not payign congestion charge lol, all worth it!!!
Speaking of valentines I played a joke on my work mate. He rang me at 4am one saturday morning pretending to be some asian dude who bought a rusty saucepan from my carboot lol! he's one crazy guy ... I told him I would get him back so I did. Sent him a mystery valentines, put my old phone number in it, me and Leanne had fun texting him some flirty stuff lol ... I gave him loads of clues like heat me up, lets get saucy etc my best one was "superabundabce carries no burden" ... superabundance minus burden is an anagram of saucepan lol and when we met him Leanne gave him a brand new saucepan I bought lolol goos job he got a sence of humour, we invited him to Leannes 18th birthday which is shaping up to be a good night, Leanne got quite a lot of people going from her college and work plus richenda ... so were looking forward to a good night in town, will be fun seeing her get served at the bar lol