motivation
I've been reading some good books and just watched a good movie and now I feel motivated to write... although all the things I was thinking of writing have just flown right out of my ears I think... anyways...
today me and Nick went on a fantastic mini road trip to the castle fun park... for some under sea mini golf which was mega cool... hour long drives always make for good bonding time not that we haven't already bonded and all that jazz I guess I just think it's nice to be trapped in a car with someone... I wish I had more to say and the things I do have to say I couldn't put into words...
We did have a fight... although it was actually more of a moment of tension not even long enough to be a second... basically I was driving badly and he began to panic so he started yelling at me... and I said what every stupid girl says which is... 'stop yelling at me' even though I deserved it... he said he was sorry right away because he knew that everything was ok and his panic was for not...
He also talked about sin and saying sorry... usually people are sorry for the consequences not the actual act... so there is no need to say you're sorry unless you're sorry for what you did and not just what resulted...
I cannot fathom him adoring me even a quarter of the amount that I adore him... I am completely content with where things are at and that they are not going any farther than they have already gone... and I think that is hard for most people to understand... I have come to the conclusion that I don't think that I deserve love... and that is ok.
today me and Nick went on a fantastic mini road trip to the castle fun park... for some under sea mini golf which was mega cool... hour long drives always make for good bonding time not that we haven't already bonded and all that jazz I guess I just think it's nice to be trapped in a car with someone... I wish I had more to say and the things I do have to say I couldn't put into words...
We did have a fight... although it was actually more of a moment of tension not even long enough to be a second... basically I was driving badly and he began to panic so he started yelling at me... and I said what every stupid girl says which is... 'stop yelling at me' even though I deserved it... he said he was sorry right away because he knew that everything was ok and his panic was for not...
He also talked about sin and saying sorry... usually people are sorry for the consequences not the actual act... so there is no need to say you're sorry unless you're sorry for what you did and not just what resulted...
I cannot fathom him adoring me even a quarter of the amount that I adore him... I am completely content with where things are at and that they are not going any farther than they have already gone... and I think that is hard for most people to understand... I have come to the conclusion that I don't think that I deserve love... and that is ok.