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i forgot that i slept and i woke up and my computer wasn't making any sounds. i closed my computer and it made a sound but it didn't last for very long at all. it doesn't need to be connected to play and the connection has been strange as of lately (two months overdue, apparently). it was already loaded and it was playing without being connected. "do you smoke?" i threw a pillow on the futon because we don't have any pillows on the futon. i put my face on the pillow and fell asleep for at least 10 minutes and then i woke back up to shut my silent computer. after that i slept some more and probably hit REM, but i don't remember it. "i love to watch things on tv."
before that i woke up laughing and spitting all over my pillow. i woke up sick and laughing and spitting on my pillow. before that i was shivering and like a bridge. another day i woke up choking on my neck. another day i woke up to being shot in the stomach and my mouth froze for three minutes during and after. 5:03, 5:05, 5:07. later on i'm a ghost in hot water and my only hint of anything is in my drained strawberry feet and i can't think, but i try anyways: it should only be natural because of course you never have someone do it for you unless you're a small child and everyone must close their eyes or the soap will burn and you don't have any control over your hands and you're smiling because the whole situation calls for it and since they aren't your hands and you don't know how they move your head will shake up and down slightly like you are timidly saying yes yes yes yes yes yes.
before that i woke up laughing and spitting all over my pillow. i woke up sick and laughing and spitting on my pillow. before that i was shivering and like a bridge. another day i woke up choking on my neck. another day i woke up to being shot in the stomach and my mouth froze for three minutes during and after. 5:03, 5:05, 5:07. later on i'm a ghost in hot water and my only hint of anything is in my drained strawberry feet and i can't think, but i try anyways: it should only be natural because of course you never have someone do it for you unless you're a small child and everyone must close their eyes or the soap will burn and you don't have any control over your hands and you're smiling because the whole situation calls for it and since they aren't your hands and you don't know how they move your head will shake up and down slightly like you are timidly saying yes yes yes yes yes yes.