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I am afraid that I'm a lot more innocent that I would ever admit to being. Even more shocking is that I think I am semi-okay with this....or at least getting there.
Student teaching is going SO well. I love my students, but it can be very stressful sometimes. I have realized that my passion is workign wtih the students that no other teachers want. I want the ones that others have given up on, the ones that others can't handle or don't even want to try to work with. I want classes full of students that are described by other teachers as being "active", or "a handful" or "a challenging group"....why do I want these students????......I want to help these kids prove to themselves and others that they are wonderful/gifted/intelligent and worthy individuals who have soemthing to add to this world. Sometimes it is hard when I realize that I coudl be student teaching in a normal gen. ed. classroom because it would be SO much easier. I sometiems wonder why I even want to make a challenging situation (student teachign) even more challenging, by choosing to teach the kind of students that I gravitate. I question it, but my answer is always the same. Teaching is the one thing that I can't not do! (yes, I know it is a double negative)....and At-risk kids are the kind of kids that I can't stay away from and that I feel I even gravitate to. I dont' want any other job, I dont' want any other students. I know that I am being positive right now and that tomorrow around 2:00 I'm going to be looking at the clock wonderign how my mentor teacher does this when it is only her in the classroom...., but each and everyday I am with my students I feel that they teach me so much...about myself, about the world, about the way that we all should live. I am doing my best to teach them, but they have taught me more than I could ever dream on being able to teach them. They have helped me grow as a teacher and as a person. I love these students and I need ot find a way to show them just how much I love them too. I hope that they will get an idea of how much I love them through the pen pal thing. I am so excited about it. I can't wait to see the letters that my students(and the whoel 3rd grade) write and the letters that they receive in return. I hope that I can be a teacher that can make a difference and can leave with college prepared to navigate my way through the world of teaching......I hope I'm ready for the ride.....
Student teaching is going SO well. I love my students, but it can be very stressful sometimes. I have realized that my passion is workign wtih the students that no other teachers want. I want the ones that others have given up on, the ones that others can't handle or don't even want to try to work with. I want classes full of students that are described by other teachers as being "active", or "a handful" or "a challenging group"....why do I want these students????......I want to help these kids prove to themselves and others that they are wonderful/gifted/intelligent and worthy individuals who have soemthing to add to this world. Sometimes it is hard when I realize that I coudl be student teaching in a normal gen. ed. classroom because it would be SO much easier. I sometiems wonder why I even want to make a challenging situation (student teachign) even more challenging, by choosing to teach the kind of students that I gravitate. I question it, but my answer is always the same. Teaching is the one thing that I can't not do! (yes, I know it is a double negative)....and At-risk kids are the kind of kids that I can't stay away from and that I feel I even gravitate to. I dont' want any other job, I dont' want any other students. I know that I am being positive right now and that tomorrow around 2:00 I'm going to be looking at the clock wonderign how my mentor teacher does this when it is only her in the classroom...., but each and everyday I am with my students I feel that they teach me so much...about myself, about the world, about the way that we all should live. I am doing my best to teach them, but they have taught me more than I could ever dream on being able to teach them. They have helped me grow as a teacher and as a person. I love these students and I need ot find a way to show them just how much I love them too. I hope that they will get an idea of how much I love them through the pen pal thing. I am so excited about it. I can't wait to see the letters that my students(and the whoel 3rd grade) write and the letters that they receive in return. I hope that I can be a teacher that can make a difference and can leave with college prepared to navigate my way through the world of teaching......I hope I'm ready for the ride.....