Life is so interesting!
alright I am taking a mental break from studying. Its been forever since I have written in my journal and there is soo much shit I would like to record.
Anyway, I was forced to write in my journal because I am having difficulty understanding a friend of mine. I can’t understand if it’s something in my head or whether this should be a concern of mine. Although my friends have always said that people here at Berkeley are here on their own and it’s only up to them to make something of themselves, I personally have the need to help this certain individual. Being that highly ambitious people have surrounded me since I have arrived at Berkeley, I have recently found it extremely difficult to tolerate people who don’t take control over their lives. (Well, not everyone just close friends). I am aware that everyone has issues and problems, which they deal with one a daily basis, but how can people let their fears and insecurities take over their lives for almost a decade. I find it soo frustrating how some people can bitch about themselves and constantly wish about materials they don’t posses, if they do nothing about it. Of course none of it will come true if all they do is bitch.
Most importantly, what exactly is preventing them to see the realization that the only person that is holding them back are themselves. Why is it soo hard for someone to take charge of their life? I know I should be a supporting a friend by being by their sides at all cost, but would I truly be a friend supporting an issue knowing that I am only helping them avoid their problems and prevent them from maturing. It may sound harsh, but I can’t seem to perceive this individual other than an 18 year old in high school who is trapped in a 26 year old body. The worst part is that this person is a close friend of mine and do care for this whore, but the only way that I can continue on partying with this friend is if I ignore the fact that she is afraid to grow up. And that has been extremely difficult to do.
Anyway, on a better note, I am going to New York for new years with lisa, matt, trisha, francis, tiff, and myself. We shall countdown the new years in Time Square. I am very excited.
alright I must continue studying
Anyway, I was forced to write in my journal because I am having difficulty understanding a friend of mine. I can’t understand if it’s something in my head or whether this should be a concern of mine. Although my friends have always said that people here at Berkeley are here on their own and it’s only up to them to make something of themselves, I personally have the need to help this certain individual. Being that highly ambitious people have surrounded me since I have arrived at Berkeley, I have recently found it extremely difficult to tolerate people who don’t take control over their lives. (Well, not everyone just close friends). I am aware that everyone has issues and problems, which they deal with one a daily basis, but how can people let their fears and insecurities take over their lives for almost a decade. I find it soo frustrating how some people can bitch about themselves and constantly wish about materials they don’t posses, if they do nothing about it. Of course none of it will come true if all they do is bitch.
Most importantly, what exactly is preventing them to see the realization that the only person that is holding them back are themselves. Why is it soo hard for someone to take charge of their life? I know I should be a supporting a friend by being by their sides at all cost, but would I truly be a friend supporting an issue knowing that I am only helping them avoid their problems and prevent them from maturing. It may sound harsh, but I can’t seem to perceive this individual other than an 18 year old in high school who is trapped in a 26 year old body. The worst part is that this person is a close friend of mine and do care for this whore, but the only way that I can continue on partying with this friend is if I ignore the fact that she is afraid to grow up. And that has been extremely difficult to do.
Anyway, on a better note, I am going to New York for new years with lisa, matt, trisha, francis, tiff, and myself. We shall countdown the new years in Time Square. I am very excited.
alright I must continue studying