issues
ugh. i don't even know what to say right now. i'm in the weirdest mood, it's crazy. i feel like my brain's going to explode any minute. me and my mom haven't really been on the same page for the past couple of weeks. it's been getting worse and worse and i have nobody to talk to about it because i don't want to become one of those people who talktalktalk. i dont have anyone to talk to anymore. nobody at school. it's really hard for me. sometimes i just want to sit and stare at the wall. i hate waking up every morning knowing that all of this is real. i'm not going to be with my friends i've known for so many years. ON TOP of that alexa's moving. shiliang is moving. sarah already moved. it's so difficult. i can't talk to my mom about any of it. she doesn't even listen. either on the phone or her little boyfriend is over. school has got her wrapped up in a knot, always busybusybusy. computer's about to blow up any day. just figured out that we have 1 MB left on our hard drive. i can't even stand to think about the holiday's coming up. when i feel like staring at the wall i get all my emotions bunched together and im always on the verge of just crying. it's weird how one little thing can get me going these days. i hate how people can be so damn cruel. there's a girl at my lunch who stands in line each day and buys her pizza and milk. she stands near the trash can and that's where she eats. i was sitting at the table with jamira, a new friend i met, and these boys next to us were saying the meanest things. i really want to work on being more friendly with people. i think this whole new school deal has got me in this weird faze. i don't act like myself or the person i know when i'm around my friends. i'm quiet. it's very unusual for myself and i don't want to make it a habit.
ignore me and my attitude, it'll dissapear soon.