Fuck this.

[cocainexdreams]

Why can't I ever be happy for a whole straight day? Or whole 24 hours? I fucking hate this whole depression thing. I wanna throw it away and lock all the past up and lose it forever. And keep the only good memories I have. I hate it when for ONE day I am completely happy the whole day but end up in tears that night. I hate it that depression

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[naild2thefloor]

heh
i know EXACTLY what you mean
i dno, try not to let shit get to you?
i know its hard
but sometimes you gotta realize its just life and that a lot of things that important at the moment are insignificant in the biggger picture of shit...
& believe me, no one else has a perfect life, i used to think that too
& like, my dad really is an asshole, but theres no such thing as a perfect life, life is all it is- life. its whatever you make of it.
good luck with shit.

...id like to rea your memoir when its published...

[the_dar_side]

Didnt you go to the Scissor Sisters free show at Spaceland in Los Angeles? I went and had a blast! Although the parking ticket we found on our car at the end of the night sorta put a blemish on the evenings events. So I guess I can relate to how you feel about feeling good all day then feeling lousy t the end.

[56_tacos]

aw i tot things looked a bit more optimistic for you...
things get tuff..but things get better..ALWAYS.
its like the for every bad day you have, you'll have a good day thing.
things suck now but sometime in the future you'll have a couple of years of real happiness.
so just think ...
and dont force the happiness... you dont have to please others all the time ya kno...
yup so as you say, fuck it.

fuck it in the ass

[cocainexdreams]

I am just realzing things more. I don't know I just was crying and felt like letting it all go out and even into words and this post thing came straight up and I just had to just spill it all here you know?