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Had a good new year. Good birthday. The drama in my life that was building and piling into a cluster, has been subsiding. I'm glad for that. I came to the conclusion that i do not need many people in my life. It's not about how many people you know, or are aquainted with, or how popular you are. It's about the select few who are in yuor life, the ones that matter the most. Take a close look. Very close. And you will see them. Sometimes the people you think care, really don't. I am realizing more and more, who is my true friend at this time, and who is nothing more than an artificial being, a waste of time.
I'm happy for this, and i intend to cherish the people who mean the most to me and who have already proven themselves to me thus far.
I love you.
I recently lost one friend, who was very dear to me. I never thought it would be so. I never thought I would be somoene he's ever turn his back on, not in a million years. But i'm trying to look ahead and somehow find that he did it for the best of himself. That he must truly care, still, but in fact to save himself/his relationship and his life, right now, has to eliminate nearly everyone. I hope with every part of me that breaths, feels and moves, we will be okay again. I hope I can still have him in my life, but cliche, only time will tell. In spite of all the pain and hurt you have caused me in doing this, I still love you, Paul. I wish you the best. I honestly do.
In the meantime, I reunited with an old friend. The one person who I was closer with and related to at that time in my life than anyone else. Nearly two years ago, tiffiny and i were the best of friends and we haven't spoken since, until a few days ago. We have connected again and are rekindling what we lost and never knew why. I'm glad for that.
And my newer friends, katie, jason, garrett, and oneal. I have already grown to love you.
you mean so much to me. You have helped me through some of the roughest times. You've stoof by me when i'm breaking down, with open arms and sympathetic heart. You listened to me pour myself out through tears and the result of an emotinal breakdown lead to by intoxication of too much aocohol night after night. You have sat by me, held me, made me laugh, smile, and see what's good when all i can see is darkness. You have helped me more han you know.
And I won't forget it.
If I did not list your name, you know if you're important to me. You just know. lol
and i love you too :]
As far as my new years resolution is concerned, yes I have made one. Actually, a couple. I haven't been very sucessful yet, but i know it's because i haven't put my mind to it.
I can do this, i will.
If it takes everything in me, I will live up to this.
I'm happy for this, and i intend to cherish the people who mean the most to me and who have already proven themselves to me thus far.
I love you.
I recently lost one friend, who was very dear to me. I never thought it would be so. I never thought I would be somoene he's ever turn his back on, not in a million years. But i'm trying to look ahead and somehow find that he did it for the best of himself. That he must truly care, still, but in fact to save himself/his relationship and his life, right now, has to eliminate nearly everyone. I hope with every part of me that breaths, feels and moves, we will be okay again. I hope I can still have him in my life, but cliche, only time will tell. In spite of all the pain and hurt you have caused me in doing this, I still love you, Paul. I wish you the best. I honestly do.
In the meantime, I reunited with an old friend. The one person who I was closer with and related to at that time in my life than anyone else. Nearly two years ago, tiffiny and i were the best of friends and we haven't spoken since, until a few days ago. We have connected again and are rekindling what we lost and never knew why. I'm glad for that.
And my newer friends, katie, jason, garrett, and oneal. I have already grown to love you.
you mean so much to me. You have helped me through some of the roughest times. You've stoof by me when i'm breaking down, with open arms and sympathetic heart. You listened to me pour myself out through tears and the result of an emotinal breakdown lead to by intoxication of too much aocohol night after night. You have sat by me, held me, made me laugh, smile, and see what's good when all i can see is darkness. You have helped me more han you know.
And I won't forget it.
If I did not list your name, you know if you're important to me. You just know. lol
and i love you too :]
As far as my new years resolution is concerned, yes I have made one. Actually, a couple. I haven't been very sucessful yet, but i know it's because i haven't put my mind to it.
I can do this, i will.
If it takes everything in me, I will live up to this.