honestly.
I wasn't wrong here. I might have been for 2.2 seconds, but I think, honestly he took all the guilt away from me.
so I leave a myspace comment to my friend - ooh yeah you look orgasmically good in that pic-... he's been my friend for a long time.. not a lloooonng time, but long enough.
kyle.. sends a myspace message to some chick- hey beautiful, just wanted to see what's going on... talk to you later, Kyle, write back :D -
(the smiley face gets me everytime...)
now, two days before I see this, I get bitched out for leaving the comment.. oh but when brooke flips out about the message... "we're even now, you did it to me, you're over reacting." I'm sorry, but even my mom thought that was extremely uncool of kyle. For 1. He even said he had never talked to this girl before... so he was clearly hitting on her. 2. 'Beautiful' vs. 'Orgasmically good' Lauren said it perfectly- you can't say 'orgasmically good' and be totally and completely serious about it but 'beautiful' that's an emotional word, it means more then a friend. but no, I'm over reacting and he was just trying to be nice and he thought it was a nice thing to say to someone who is skinnier and prettier than his gf. Then when I continue to dwell on it, I get the 'get over it, get a life' speech. Well, why can't he get a fucking clue. obviously i'm dwelling on it because he didn't do a swell job at reassuring me that he would never cheat on me and all that bullshit. And all I could think of was... what if she would have written back. What if she would have responded.. then what. because he started and I know his personality, he would have kept it going. And when I express this thought, once again, i get teh 'get over it, get a life, grow up' speech... I told him, to his face that if this happens again, I can't promise I'll stick around. he says, I'm not perfect, I will never intentionally hurt you. yeah well, slip ups aren't ok with me. use common sense. So, he knows, if he fucks up one more time, I'm gone. I don't know if he believes me, but he will because I'm sure it wont be long. because I've given him plenty of do-overs to redeem himself and he always follows up w/ something stupid. I'm 16, I don't care how much this kid says he loves me... i don't have to deal with his shit.
The idea of 'fate' bringing us together for some reason... and then 'fate' showing me the message. Can 'fate' be bad? Can it send bad signs? And what happens if we take them the wrong way.. 'you're fucked' that's kyles' smart ass response. It doesn't help. I need direct answer. i can't be held accountable for my decisions. i suck at decision making. I went to the movies with him and I hadn't even known him for 24 hours. and then in the end, there's something about him that makes everything seem ok when nothing is ok. I'm so fucking confused.
I think I just miss hiding your feelings and playing hard to get. So pretty much 8th grade, w/ taylor.
mare, i love you. I hope your surgery went well.
just wanted to let you know, you're on my mind. :wink wink: love you qt pie.
so I leave a myspace comment to my friend - ooh yeah you look orgasmically good in that pic-... he's been my friend for a long time.. not a lloooonng time, but long enough.
kyle.. sends a myspace message to some chick- hey beautiful, just wanted to see what's going on... talk to you later, Kyle, write back :D -
(the smiley face gets me everytime...)
now, two days before I see this, I get bitched out for leaving the comment.. oh but when brooke flips out about the message... "we're even now, you did it to me, you're over reacting." I'm sorry, but even my mom thought that was extremely uncool of kyle. For 1. He even said he had never talked to this girl before... so he was clearly hitting on her. 2. 'Beautiful' vs. 'Orgasmically good' Lauren said it perfectly- you can't say 'orgasmically good' and be totally and completely serious about it but 'beautiful' that's an emotional word, it means more then a friend. but no, I'm over reacting and he was just trying to be nice and he thought it was a nice thing to say to someone who is skinnier and prettier than his gf. Then when I continue to dwell on it, I get the 'get over it, get a life' speech. Well, why can't he get a fucking clue. obviously i'm dwelling on it because he didn't do a swell job at reassuring me that he would never cheat on me and all that bullshit. And all I could think of was... what if she would have written back. What if she would have responded.. then what. because he started and I know his personality, he would have kept it going. And when I express this thought, once again, i get teh 'get over it, get a life, grow up' speech... I told him, to his face that if this happens again, I can't promise I'll stick around. he says, I'm not perfect, I will never intentionally hurt you. yeah well, slip ups aren't ok with me. use common sense. So, he knows, if he fucks up one more time, I'm gone. I don't know if he believes me, but he will because I'm sure it wont be long. because I've given him plenty of do-overs to redeem himself and he always follows up w/ something stupid. I'm 16, I don't care how much this kid says he loves me... i don't have to deal with his shit.
The idea of 'fate' bringing us together for some reason... and then 'fate' showing me the message. Can 'fate' be bad? Can it send bad signs? And what happens if we take them the wrong way.. 'you're fucked' that's kyles' smart ass response. It doesn't help. I need direct answer. i can't be held accountable for my decisions. i suck at decision making. I went to the movies with him and I hadn't even known him for 24 hours. and then in the end, there's something about him that makes everything seem ok when nothing is ok. I'm so fucking confused.
I think I just miss hiding your feelings and playing hard to get. So pretty much 8th grade, w/ taylor.
mare, i love you. I hope your surgery went well.
just wanted to let you know, you're on my mind. :wink wink: love you qt pie.