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GOD IM FUCKING PISSED OFF. jeremy all calls me from work to complain about his whiney little day where he just couldnt stop dropping things and lisa was just being so dumb! oh my god someone go help him!!! jesus fucking christ ok. im not even mad at him right now, but he wont let me say any of this shit without hanging up, walking away, telling me im an idiot, or telling me that i ask too much from him.
everytime i try and vent about someone or something that has NOTHING AT ALL to do about him he cries and asks why im being so mean to him. its just normal pissy venting too, like "GOD DAMN MICHAEL HE SAID HE WAS WITH HIM MOM BUT I DO NOT SEE HIS CAR AT HIS HOUSE HE FUCKING LIED." and then he gets all pissed and im like "I WASNT EVEN TALKING ABOUT YOU" and hes all "WHY ARE YOU YELLING WHY ARE YOU MAKING A BIG DEAL" and the whole fucking reason i make a big deal is because twice a day when i wanna do is get a little venting out about some crappy thing he fucking starts making fun of me and telling me how i look crazy and allllll this shit. so i fucking tried to tell him, everytime i yell about something that has nothing to do with you, you turn it around and make it into this huge deal about how im yelling at you and being mean to you when all i fucking wanna do IS SAY HOW I FEEL. i sat there for 15 minutes yesterday as he yelled about some bullshit at the grocery store and how he wanted to punch this bitch and then afterwards for like 30 minutes he wouldnt even look at me as if everything was my fault. and allllllll i did was tell him jokes and huggles him and try to make him happy. but when im in a bad mood OH NO JEREMY IS BEING ABUSED BY PAIGEEEE TIME TO FOCUS EVERYTHING ON HIIIIIMMMM.
the other day we got into a huuuuge fight and basically i tried to tell him what i just said up there and he said "NO YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN TO ME" so i sat there for 30 minutes and listened to all the wronfull things i have done to him. all i wanna do is tell him "hey dont do this (whatever it may be at the time) because its not fair to me and it pisses me off." but then it all has to turn into him standing over me yelling at me for making a big deal out of things. he tells me that i cant excpect him to change everything but why does he excpect me to change everything? he also tells me that i base everything around myself which is the polar opposite. every night i hang out with HIS friends. and if i invite one of my friends over (which he hates all of them accept for you bri, and also molly) he gets all pissed and starts talking shit about them. and im like "wellllllll. get over it because they are my friends and i hang out with yr friends even though i dont like some of them." and hes like "GET OVER IT? YOUR TELLING ME TO GET OVER IT? *leaves*" he says i make a big deal WHEN REALLY HE IS THE ONE THAT MAKES A BIG DEAL. let me complain about my shit, stand there, listen like i do to him, and then its over. i am SICK of how everytime i try and bring something up to him he cant be like "ok" he has to find some way to justify his actions and he has to find some way where i have wronged him, and then he tells me hes not gonna play the get back game with me and listen to what his problems are. whenever we fight i cant win because hes just so fucking close minded.
oh and on the other hand i got fired from my job because of the TINY pot leafs on my myspace, and i have to get a root cannal tomorrow! yaaaaayyyyy paige is having a bad say so now is yr perfect oppertunity to bean mean!
wdit: p.s. i just fucking broke my phone cuz i threw it at the wall and uhhhm yep. now it wont turn on so if you wanna call me then id suggest just not bothering all together.
everytime i try and vent about someone or something that has NOTHING AT ALL to do about him he cries and asks why im being so mean to him. its just normal pissy venting too, like "GOD DAMN MICHAEL HE SAID HE WAS WITH HIM MOM BUT I DO NOT SEE HIS CAR AT HIS HOUSE HE FUCKING LIED." and then he gets all pissed and im like "I WASNT EVEN TALKING ABOUT YOU" and hes all "WHY ARE YOU YELLING WHY ARE YOU MAKING A BIG DEAL" and the whole fucking reason i make a big deal is because twice a day when i wanna do is get a little venting out about some crappy thing he fucking starts making fun of me and telling me how i look crazy and allllll this shit. so i fucking tried to tell him, everytime i yell about something that has nothing to do with you, you turn it around and make it into this huge deal about how im yelling at you and being mean to you when all i fucking wanna do IS SAY HOW I FEEL. i sat there for 15 minutes yesterday as he yelled about some bullshit at the grocery store and how he wanted to punch this bitch and then afterwards for like 30 minutes he wouldnt even look at me as if everything was my fault. and allllllll i did was tell him jokes and huggles him and try to make him happy. but when im in a bad mood OH NO JEREMY IS BEING ABUSED BY PAIGEEEE TIME TO FOCUS EVERYTHING ON HIIIIIMMMM.
the other day we got into a huuuuge fight and basically i tried to tell him what i just said up there and he said "NO YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LISTEN TO ME" so i sat there for 30 minutes and listened to all the wronfull things i have done to him. all i wanna do is tell him "hey dont do this (whatever it may be at the time) because its not fair to me and it pisses me off." but then it all has to turn into him standing over me yelling at me for making a big deal out of things. he tells me that i cant excpect him to change everything but why does he excpect me to change everything? he also tells me that i base everything around myself which is the polar opposite. every night i hang out with HIS friends. and if i invite one of my friends over (which he hates all of them accept for you bri, and also molly) he gets all pissed and starts talking shit about them. and im like "wellllllll. get over it because they are my friends and i hang out with yr friends even though i dont like some of them." and hes like "GET OVER IT? YOUR TELLING ME TO GET OVER IT? *leaves*" he says i make a big deal WHEN REALLY HE IS THE ONE THAT MAKES A BIG DEAL. let me complain about my shit, stand there, listen like i do to him, and then its over. i am SICK of how everytime i try and bring something up to him he cant be like "ok" he has to find some way to justify his actions and he has to find some way where i have wronged him, and then he tells me hes not gonna play the get back game with me and listen to what his problems are. whenever we fight i cant win because hes just so fucking close minded.
oh and on the other hand i got fired from my job because of the TINY pot leafs on my myspace, and i have to get a root cannal tomorrow! yaaaaayyyyy paige is having a bad say so now is yr perfect oppertunity to bean mean!
wdit: p.s. i just fucking broke my phone cuz i threw it at the wall and uhhhm yep. now it wont turn on so if you wanna call me then id suggest just not bothering all together.