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i woke up this morning with jeremy going through my droors. i sat up to talk to him but he just flipped me off and left the room. i got up and chased after him but he just said "peace bitch" and got into seans car and drove off. i called seans house and he yelled at me and told me i couldnt be fighting with jeremy over his phone. which is reasonable but i wasnt even calling to fight so it just hurt my feelings a lot. i told him to just have jeremy call me then. which he did about ten minutes later, but he basically just said how im a bad girlfriend and hung up without letting me talk.
i was so hurt this morning all i could do was cry. i was shaking and gasping for breath and i just couldnt get any control over myself. i cried so hard my stumach cramped up. when jeremy hung up on me i screamed and threw the vase of flowers he bought me yesterday and it broke all over :[
i still cant stop crying and i have no idea what to do with myself. i have paced around crying, layed on my bed crying, walked aimlessly outside crying, and now im crying and drunking vodka. i know i problly shouldnt get drunk but i dont care. im so hurt that theres nothing else i can do to chill the fuck out. all i want to do is talk to my brother but his phone is shut off. i need alexis too. i need her so bad but shes at school :[ so i guess i have to sit here by myself. my dad problly thinks im a fucking psycho cuz all he has heard this morning is me crying horribley loud. he asked me what was wrong but at the time i couldnt even keep my head straight and i yelled at him and told him to leave me the fuck alone. i feel bad about it.
i was so hurt this morning all i could do was cry. i was shaking and gasping for breath and i just couldnt get any control over myself. i cried so hard my stumach cramped up. when jeremy hung up on me i screamed and threw the vase of flowers he bought me yesterday and it broke all over :[
i still cant stop crying and i have no idea what to do with myself. i have paced around crying, layed on my bed crying, walked aimlessly outside crying, and now im crying and drunking vodka. i know i problly shouldnt get drunk but i dont care. im so hurt that theres nothing else i can do to chill the fuck out. all i want to do is talk to my brother but his phone is shut off. i need alexis too. i need her so bad but shes at school :[ so i guess i have to sit here by myself. my dad problly thinks im a fucking psycho cuz all he has heard this morning is me crying horribley loud. he asked me what was wrong but at the time i couldnt even keep my head straight and i yelled at him and told him to leave me the fuck alone. i feel bad about it.