"you do look glum! What you need is a gramme of soma."
I feel like every day is exactly the same sometimes. For as much as I have changed and everyone around me has changed it seems like nothing has really changed at all. I wonder if it will always stay this way. When do people change and grow up? Here I am almost 22 years old and I'm still doing the same things I did when I was in middle school and I'm still content with it. I'm still not making friends because I feel like most people are not worth the drama and stress that friendship causes. I'm still sitting inside nearly everyday in my room. Alone. Or talking with my parents. Is that normal for a 21 year old? I've never even been to a bar, but I don't want to. But I feel like I should want to. It's like something inside of me isn't normal.
I don't understand really. A lot of things to me seem pointless. It's like.... here I am wasting away in this town I grew up in that I want to get out of. Sometimes I think I'll never get out.
I have one good friend who tries to get me to hang out with him, but I always make up some excuse so I don't have to. I don't know why. I'd rather sit inside by myself and be depressed I guess.
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It's like I'm waiting for someone to actually listen to me. To be interested about what I think and how I feel. I want someone to just stand in front of me and look into my eyes and really understand even though I don't understand. Countless friends I've lost for not understanding. I don't even know what I'm writing about really.
I hate how nothing is guaranteed in life. I feel like we're all playing our part in some game and there's no point to it.
I don't understand really. A lot of things to me seem pointless. It's like.... here I am wasting away in this town I grew up in that I want to get out of. Sometimes I think I'll never get out.
I have one good friend who tries to get me to hang out with him, but I always make up some excuse so I don't have to. I don't know why. I'd rather sit inside by myself and be depressed I guess.
lskdflsfjlsk
It's like I'm waiting for someone to actually listen to me. To be interested about what I think and how I feel. I want someone to just stand in front of me and look into my eyes and really understand even though I don't understand. Countless friends I've lost for not understanding. I don't even know what I'm writing about really.
I hate how nothing is guaranteed in life. I feel like we're all playing our part in some game and there's no point to it.