READ THIS!!!!!
Dear Jessica,
I'm Sorry it has taken me so long to say anything about this. I feel like a horrible person, because when my sister was first telling me about it I giggled to myself and told her to stop lieing. I'm sorry.I honestly didnt belive her. Then Haley told me and I knew it was true. Its takein me a couple of days to come to complete grasps of what I am thinking. So here it goes. FUCK THIS!!! THIS IS BULLSHIT!! SHE DID NOT NEED TO DIE, IT WAS NOT HER TIME TO GO. IT PISSES ME OFF THAT SHES GONE! FUCK!
Ok, I feel a little better. But Jess....it sucks man, it really does. I mean yea, we are not the greatest friends as we have gotten older, we still get along and still throw a dumb retarded hello everytime we see eachother. And there was still spanish class, where you Haley and I were dumb and obnocktous. Haley and I were always in touble and you always made fun of us for it. I mean...you sat right in front of me, we talked, we laughed everything. But thats not even it. Its that we GREW UP together. I have pictures of us when we were younger. Pictures of us when we "cheerleaded" together. Its just not right. You were happy pretty much ALL the time, you always smiled and laughed. You could always cheer someone up. Though you were supper gumpy lol and kinda blonde at times, we still all care for you. It's what makes you so special. We may have fadded our friendship as we grew up, but a childhood is what counts in life. I miss you dearly and I wish our friendship would of stayed stronger as we grew older. But now I have to deal with that it wasnt, and that I have to mainly remeber you by us as young girls or us in spanish class, I have so many pictures of us, that it hurts to look at them. You are always one to tell us to "look on the bright side" to always "find the positive in things" so I'm trying, and I find that this will bring us closer together. But then I think about it, and it shouldnt have to take DEATH to bring people closer cuz then when LIFE is there,and it just fades again. I feel I'm not wording this right, its just so hard to put what I'm feeling into words, but I'm sure you and everyone else that feels the way I do, can understand. I miss you already and I'm sure I always will. Every tear I shed for you is ment for you.
Everyone pray for her family please.
Dont speak in the past.
Dez