Gods I am soo STUPID!!!
Why do I fix up two of my friends knowing that seeing them together or even hearing about them being together will bring me pain? Am I sadistic or what? My good friend whom I shall call Demon (I wouldn't want people to be confused with Damien Carrion) asked me to fix him up with my friend I shall call Fae and of course me being who I am I agree to talk her into it. Which I do even though it is killing me right now. I am such a fucking loser, I'm not even posting this on my normal journal because she would see it, thinking back on it she knows of this one too so it may be useless. I just want them to be happy. Sometimes I think I thrive on the pain in my life, that I purposly look for things to hurt me. I just don't know. Help me guys, please?