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[cobrakai]

 lately ive been wondering if im ever going to find a girl that makes me happy.
i thought i did but i was way way way way wrong. 
worst mistake of my life.
but as they say, live and learn.
fucking worthless cunt bitch.

i know what im looking for, and i think i found it, but i doubt its going to happen so im not getting my hopes up..
i live my life on hopes and dreams so its just adding to it.
fuck.

ive been applying for jobs but since the economy sucks balls i still havent found a fucking job.
i FINALLY applied at leblanc studios for an internship doing whatever and they said they would be in touch.
i hope i get it.
even if it doesnt pay anything, ill get another job somewhere else.
i dont care.
ive wanted to work there for sooo long.

i just want to get my life on track so i can start school.
i just need a kick in the ass so i can finally realize that im not destined to be like this the rest of my life.
i want to be sucessfu. i want a beautiful wife, kids, a dog, a nice house with a big yard and to not have a care in the world.
but i guess thats what everybody wants and sometimes it just doesnt happen.

i just want to be happy. 
i can taste it.
but i cant have it.