I cant take this...
I can not sit here and wait for someone who stopped caring about me in less than a week. Its the biggest waste of time. Ive cried too many tears and i dont want to wake up with swollen eyes and a sore throat anymore. It is horrible for my mental and physical health. But i cant stop caring about someone all of a sudden. It hurts to hold on, but it hurts more to let go. Basically im hanging onto barbed wire above a pit of fire and glass. Theres no where to go. So Ill probably just go to the bar. Cheers. :(