Goodbye Old Friend
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Originally uploaded by cobob Today is one of those days that just sucks. I had to do something for all the right reasons, but that doesn't help the lump in my throat or the grief in my heart. Mickey, my ex's dog, started going downhill in November. His eyes went cloudy and his hearing seemed to be going. He seemed to have problems standing up and walking. Sometimes his hind legs seemed to give out and he'd fall on the floor. He started walking into walls, people, ... everything. He started having problems with propreception (the sense of knowing where your limbs and muscles are.) All in all, these are signs of some type of neurological problem. Last night, he stepped in his dog dish and broke one of his nails right out of the bone in his paw. He was bleeding everywhere and the bone in his paw was broken,. He didn't even feel it. I got the bleeding stopped, but decided it was time. I got up this morning and called the Denver Dumb Friends League and made an appointment. I could barely talk. I drove Mickey down to Denver. We stopped at Sonic and he had a couple of cheese burgers ... I couldn't eat. We got to the DDLF and I thought I was doing OK. Someone asked me what was wrong with him, and I said he was old and sick. Then I lost it.
I have no problem bringing the cattle to auction, but dogs are different for me. I'm one of those people who allow dogs to become part of my family. He was one of my "kids." And he was the second one I lost this year. Today just sucked. I'm such a mess.