notes from peru
I'd never openly admit this, but my love for maria is slowly wanning. I don`t know if it'll peak again, but I think I`m fine about the whole idea. If we break up, great, I can go on to greener pastures, and if we stay together, we`ll try to work things out. I set boundries and limits and expectations. None of them are out of the ordinary. Communicate with me at least once a day. Don`t cheat on me. Love me.
No matter how much sex we`ve had, or how much it`ll hurt to have to start all over again, I know that I have to stand up for those thoughts and actions. I will leave her if she violates those three rules. I won`t back down. Carl Jung wrote something along the lines of "No great consciousness can be achieved without going through pain." It`s true. The pain I feel and felt shape my consiousness, though my memories persist.
She and I had so many good times in that month`s time we spent together. Sure the sex was great and her ass was nice and tight, but was there really love? I miss all of it, I do, but I miss her more. When I think about us, I think about her waist docked in my left hand, her teasing, her smiles, her eyes when they gazed so diligently over her little freckles. "She`s mine, all mine," I think to myself. Even now, a smirk smears my face in nostalgea. I love her, I do and I did.
If I were a different man, I think I could have enjoyed her more. I could have made better use of that time. What really makes me superior to all those other men she`s dated? I don`t know and I`m not sure. But, if we both move on, I`d figure it wasn`t much at all. Sure, I got an alright dick and I know how to use it and my hands aren`t half bad, but a gynocologist could do the same work. No, I think it really is something deeper that binds us, something we can`t just shed and grow anew. Not with ease, not with her.
lol, hairy ass and a little bit overweight. seldomly photogenic but in person she looks great. she`ll swallow my cum when she gives my dick a suck, but she`ll tease me to death and then refuse to fuck. She slouches sometimes when she tries to walk, but god I love that woman when she starts to talk. Her grammar`s a mess, her writing lacks finess, but I don`t give a fuck cus she`s my princess.
What is it about maria that humbles me so,
I bet many other men have pondered in woe.
what do I do? Should I stay or should I go?
I`m so confused, but this I know.
I`ll stick with untill the end, no matter how long the show.
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top fives
I love top fives, compliments of my dear old friend John Cusack of course.
Here`s a toughie.
Top five women I would`ve loved to date and never got a chance to:
1. Jennifer Elizabeth Hannah Cespedes Hernandez
2. Nikki Alexandra Poey
3. Tania (maybe)
4. Ashlie (maybe)
That`s all I have so far.
No matter how much sex we`ve had, or how much it`ll hurt to have to start all over again, I know that I have to stand up for those thoughts and actions. I will leave her if she violates those three rules. I won`t back down. Carl Jung wrote something along the lines of "No great consciousness can be achieved without going through pain." It`s true. The pain I feel and felt shape my consiousness, though my memories persist.
She and I had so many good times in that month`s time we spent together. Sure the sex was great and her ass was nice and tight, but was there really love? I miss all of it, I do, but I miss her more. When I think about us, I think about her waist docked in my left hand, her teasing, her smiles, her eyes when they gazed so diligently over her little freckles. "She`s mine, all mine," I think to myself. Even now, a smirk smears my face in nostalgea. I love her, I do and I did.
If I were a different man, I think I could have enjoyed her more. I could have made better use of that time. What really makes me superior to all those other men she`s dated? I don`t know and I`m not sure. But, if we both move on, I`d figure it wasn`t much at all. Sure, I got an alright dick and I know how to use it and my hands aren`t half bad, but a gynocologist could do the same work. No, I think it really is something deeper that binds us, something we can`t just shed and grow anew. Not with ease, not with her.
lol, hairy ass and a little bit overweight. seldomly photogenic but in person she looks great. she`ll swallow my cum when she gives my dick a suck, but she`ll tease me to death and then refuse to fuck. She slouches sometimes when she tries to walk, but god I love that woman when she starts to talk. Her grammar`s a mess, her writing lacks finess, but I don`t give a fuck cus she`s my princess.
What is it about maria that humbles me so,
I bet many other men have pondered in woe.
what do I do? Should I stay or should I go?
I`m so confused, but this I know.
I`ll stick with untill the end, no matter how long the show.
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top fives
I love top fives, compliments of my dear old friend John Cusack of course.
Here`s a toughie.
Top five women I would`ve loved to date and never got a chance to:
1. Jennifer Elizabeth Hannah Cespedes Hernandez
2. Nikki Alexandra Poey
3. Tania (maybe)
4. Ashlie (maybe)
That`s all I have so far.