life on a silver platter

[cobeanfarmer]

I didn't really understand that whole statement about having to like yourself before you can like anyone else. Now, I live and breathe that quote as many before me have and many after me will. Although people who constantly spew sunshine and rainbows into this world generally make me ill, I've been caught in a rut of sorts. Dare I say it?
I have become an optimist.

Distances become abbreviated.
Music has become easier to play.
Food seems more nourishing.
Heavy weights are lighter than they appear.

and women...
As the international british rock sensation Momus would say,
"I want you, I want you to want me to want you,
but I don't need you...
don't need you to need me to need you..."

For the record, I may not need need her, as her presence may or may not be detrimental to my education, but I sure as fucking hell want her and want her so fucking bad.
And unfortunately, in my current state of optimism, I can't help but think that she wants me too, despite not needing me.
I want her to want me to want her,
but I don't need that to ask her to want me
I don't very much care what it takes, but this pilar of perfection will fall and fall hard by my hand and for it...
I guess she has no choice