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Blood donation day. I have to admit to being completely embarassed that I nearly passed out at least twice when they were done. Last time I was prefectly fine! Ah well, next time I'm going to eat more before I go.
I have a bit of writer's block but lots of things I have to write. We'll see where that goes. My ipod seems healed, but I have discovered that not only will my internet explorer not let me on hotmail or play youtube videos-- oh no, it can't stop there. I can't get to brokenartists.com or yumiinlove.com or probably a smattering of other websites I haven't checked in a while. *grumbles at the evils*
Why do I suddenly want to put Feist on my ipod? I don't even like her that much. (I blame the vid for 'My Moon My Man' and quoth_the_girl for sending it to me.)
Why is it that the things that freak me out the most, I feel compelled to make a commitment to? Jobs and school and now religon. I've been wavering for far too long as it is, but it scares the shit outta me. I suppose it doesn't help that my mindset has a tendancy to be "If I can't do it perfectly, I won't do it at all," which is really a stupid way for me to be. All my life, fear has frozen me. Not the "there's someone waiting around the corner to kill me" fear. That I could control. It's more the cliche fear of failure that seems to get me. I was taught "Always try hard enough to get A's", but what I learned was "Always get A's".
Anyway, I'm not sure what I was saying. I probably don't have a point.
Goodnight all!
I have a bit of writer's block but lots of things I have to write. We'll see where that goes. My ipod seems healed, but I have discovered that not only will my internet explorer not let me on hotmail or play youtube videos-- oh no, it can't stop there. I can't get to brokenartists.com or yumiinlove.com or probably a smattering of other websites I haven't checked in a while. *grumbles at the evils*
Why do I suddenly want to put Feist on my ipod? I don't even like her that much. (I blame the vid for 'My Moon My Man' and quoth_the_girl for sending it to me.)
Why is it that the things that freak me out the most, I feel compelled to make a commitment to? Jobs and school and now religon. I've been wavering for far too long as it is, but it scares the shit outta me. I suppose it doesn't help that my mindset has a tendancy to be "If I can't do it perfectly, I won't do it at all," which is really a stupid way for me to be. All my life, fear has frozen me. Not the "there's someone waiting around the corner to kill me" fear. That I could control. It's more the cliche fear of failure that seems to get me. I was taught "Always try hard enough to get A's", but what I learned was "Always get A's".
Anyway, I'm not sure what I was saying. I probably don't have a point.
Goodnight all!