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i dont know anymore I've been on some new medications they dont seem to be helping i post in here cos noone knows of it expect you guys not my bf or family. it's just easier that way. lately ive been feeling really suicidal then my manic kicks in and it's just wearing me out physically and mentally.
I just feel lost. I'm trying to reconnect with ppl of my past the ones that helped obviously. I haven't decided wether its a good thing or a bad thing..I just wish i could feel good feel healthy and happy. I'm trying i really am but my mental crap is so much to fight.. I don't know. I hope this all just turns out good. Cos if it doesnt get better i fear that i will become who i used to be and im through with that part of my life...
I just feel lost. I'm trying to reconnect with ppl of my past the ones that helped obviously. I haven't decided wether its a good thing or a bad thing..I just wish i could feel good feel healthy and happy. I'm trying i really am but my mental crap is so much to fight.. I don't know. I hope this all just turns out good. Cos if it doesnt get better i fear that i will become who i used to be and im through with that part of my life...