forgive and forget.
forgive and forget.
even with all that has been going on in the past couple weeks, for some reason, i can't do that when it comes to my dad. all these years of resentment and hurt just built up over the years. don't fucking tell me you wanted the best for me because things are fucked up already. we can't go back. we can never go back.
i can't wait till the day where i'm successful and sooo in love. i'm going to come back and laugh in your face. i told you i would be fine. didn't i say i was going to be okay?!
i hate having to prove myself to you everyday.
i'm really not a fuck up.
i just wish you would believe me.
i've always ran away. but i always had to come back. this is my chance to really start over. and i'm holding things off, because of you. because i want you to be happy.
forget about what i want.
i can't stand your constant bitching. what college i go to does not determine my future. i will be successful. i promise you that. sometimes i wish i could just hold you. explain to you my scars. my past. you think you knoe. but you have no clue. and it'll hurt you. i'm sorry.
i'm always sorry. i'm always wrong.
but i will be okay.
time will prove it to you.
i just hope that you'll have an open mind. when it comes.