Shannon
Finally talked to Shannon on the phone tonight (last night).
Hadn't seen her OR talked to her in maybe over 2 years. I miss all my old friends, some more than others. -so great to talk with her again! =D
And - IF my dumb ass can remember to call her today, I'm supposed to go over to her place to hang out for a while. Should be nice and "green" just like old times (I HOPE)!!!
a few problems though, which I hope I can solve so I can get out there to FINALLY see her again:
1. gas money
She said she'd give me gas money if I could come out to her place,
but man would that be pathetic - taking money from her to go see her.... :o/
Hopefully, I can come up with some money so that won't happen,
but since I have borrowed for the last 2-3 days, that seems quite unlikely.
2. car
My truck was totalled months ago, which I've gone over and over by now, I'm sure.
So, I'm gonna need to use Mom's car,
therefor, if Mom needs the car, I'm pretty much screwed-
ALTHOUGH, she DID say she would come out here if I can't make it out there.
+If that is the situation, I hope she has GPS to find me out here in the backwoods...
Also, me there would definitely beat having her here - parents here - none there.
smoking there= cool, cool, COOL!!!
smoking HERE? = not so much=suX
3. smokes
Here I sit again with....... technically, not even ONE cigarette.
I've got about 4 half-cigs, and 5 camels that are little more than butts.
So, on top of all of the other mentioned obstacles, I need $4 to get a pack of coffin nails.
I should be seeing Dad in about an hour or so - give or take a few minutes,
may as well listen to a little cussing from him after I ask for the 4 bucks, which he probably doesn't have anyway...
-doubt I can charge another pack from Rachel and John's store since I just did that earlier today... won't even attempt that, either way.... ...
I think that just about covers it.
And this is my pathetic excuse for a life.
REALLY REALLY need to see her today, though, and hope and pray that she might possible give me a bud or 2, or OFFER, I should say, because it would be an even lower level for me, to end up ASKING / begging, I might as well say, for a fucking hand out.
But, I wouldn't put it past me; I have little if any shred of pride remaining at this point.
WHY CAN'T I FIND A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?????????
It is SO F U C K I N G annoying!
Oh yeah, and since the Lortabs are gone and GONE, it would be GREAT if my tooth would not hurt like hell again today. (fingers crossed)
Whatever, that's enough!
HEY! I *COULD* ask Tony to loan me the 4 bucks.... hmmm.... let's see how / if all this shit works out.
Buh bye!
Hadn't seen her OR talked to her in maybe over 2 years. I miss all my old friends, some more than others. -so great to talk with her again! =D
And - IF my dumb ass can remember to call her today, I'm supposed to go over to her place to hang out for a while. Should be nice and "green" just like old times (I HOPE)!!!
a few problems though, which I hope I can solve so I can get out there to FINALLY see her again:
1. gas money
She said she'd give me gas money if I could come out to her place,
but man would that be pathetic - taking money from her to go see her.... :o/
Hopefully, I can come up with some money so that won't happen,
but since I have borrowed for the last 2-3 days, that seems quite unlikely.
2. car
My truck was totalled months ago, which I've gone over and over by now, I'm sure.
So, I'm gonna need to use Mom's car,
therefor, if Mom needs the car, I'm pretty much screwed-
ALTHOUGH, she DID say she would come out here if I can't make it out there.
+If that is the situation, I hope she has GPS to find me out here in the backwoods...
Also, me there would definitely beat having her here - parents here - none there.
smoking there= cool, cool, COOL!!!
smoking HERE? = not so much=suX
3. smokes
Here I sit again with....... technically, not even ONE cigarette.
I've got about 4 half-cigs, and 5 camels that are little more than butts.
So, on top of all of the other mentioned obstacles, I need $4 to get a pack of coffin nails.
I should be seeing Dad in about an hour or so - give or take a few minutes,
may as well listen to a little cussing from him after I ask for the 4 bucks, which he probably doesn't have anyway...
-doubt I can charge another pack from Rachel and John's store since I just did that earlier today... won't even attempt that, either way.... ...
I think that just about covers it.
And this is my pathetic excuse for a life.
REALLY REALLY need to see her today, though, and hope and pray that she might possible give me a bud or 2, or OFFER, I should say, because it would be an even lower level for me, to end up ASKING / begging, I might as well say, for a fucking hand out.
But, I wouldn't put it past me; I have little if any shred of pride remaining at this point.
WHY CAN'T I FIND A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!!!?!?!?????????
It is SO F U C K I N G annoying!
Oh yeah, and since the Lortabs are gone and GONE, it would be GREAT if my tooth would not hurt like hell again today. (fingers crossed)
Whatever, that's enough!
HEY! I *COULD* ask Tony to loan me the 4 bucks.... hmmm.... let's see how / if all this shit works out.
Buh bye!