you can't judge a book by its cover...

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okay well everyone is so happy during the holidays and thats great!!! I'm glad to see everyone happy but at the same time i can't help but to sit back and wonder why i'm not...i haven't felt like myself in a while! When i'm around people i'm fine, i'm happy or at least having fun but when i'm at home or driving or just by myself i get so sad even depressed and there's really no reason for it or there should't be but i can't help it. I guess thats why i try to surround myself with people all the time.

**I know what will make me happy but i don't think i'll get it anytime soon but i do have a tendency of getting what i want, i guess i'm just that determined...lol...hopefully things will change soon i don't think they will but a girl can hope right?