december 1st. already.
i feel like time is moving too fast for me. i wish i could just stop it in its tracks. its been 3 years since i moved back from tucson. i cant even believe that first of all. it feel like it was just yesterday. i miss it on occasion. I've officially been living out on my own for a year now as well. which also flew by. going to be my second christmas in the apartment. we set up our little charlie brown tree yesterday. things are going well though. i really enjoy spending time with my current roommates. they are about my only friends plus a few others. and i'm content with that. i like being able to do people favors and know that actually appreciate them. and arent just two faced like 90% of the people i've met in my life. I'm in a slight Rut though. with good always comes bad. its like that one law of physics. what goes up must always come down. even balloons. ever wonder what happens after you let one go in the sky.... it comes down... i wish i could be a star.. and break that "law". be up in the sky all the time. that would be the life, a dream, im not sure the exact proportion but i'm pretty sure 98% of people who dream about doing something die before getting it. anyways. so i'm being harassed. i have not the slightest idea by whom. or why for that matter. but my cars been getting egged, prank phone calls, and now.. a bolder through my bedroom window. Its funny in a way. because i didn't care at first. but not its just a little over dramatic.. i'm waiting to walk out my door for work one day and have the fucker sitting there with a shot gun. my anxiety is a mess because of it. but it will pass by. i mean.. they have to stop eventually.. if not... ill probably just end up finding a new apartment. i don't like being home alone. it creeps me out. every little noise gives me a slight chill up my back. on other news. my friend matt passed away. They say he overdosed. hes the kid i wrote about in my last entry, that i did that really awesome tattoo on. i wish i could be in his head and have helped him... but sometimes its the way things belong. some people are just in that much pain. or maybe it was an accident and he didn't know his limit. i still haven't found out the story. and i don't think anyone ever will. but that's life. rest in peace matt. it was good while it lasted. on a lighter note. bills are just about paid in full. i owe like 40 bucks to the heat bill. and 140 for electric which will be paid friday :) i'll be happy once everything's at a zero balance and i can finally afford to ship max a package to truro, UK. Gash do i miss that bellend. i hope he comes to the states to visit soon. Daniel is trying to come up for new years which will be soooooo friggin amazing. i've known him since i was 16. and we have yet to hang out. thinking about that gets me overjoyed with excitement(cuddling the turtle he sent me as i type) oh Road trip to ohio got canceled because chris's dad didn't follow through with giving him money for us for gas. but i think it might just get pushed back for a couple weeks. hmmm..! i get to see Ryan W in 6 days. i miss him. i wish he still lived here. he took tuesday and wednesday off of work so we can hang out. those are my normal days off. hopefully the schdedule stays the same. alright i thinkkkkkkk thats the update for the time being. roger. over and out. x