OnE mOnTh ToMoRrOw!!
So tomorrow is me and Lisas one month. I know thats not long at all im just happy b/c she makes me so completely absolutely positively the happiest person ever!! Whenever im with her, talking to her, texting her, or just thinking about her i have the biggest smile on my face! I really wish i had the money so i could just move in now but i dont. I really need to get busy and start looking for another job. Whether i have to have 2 jobs or just one higher paying job im willing to do it. My parents are making me move out by June-July so i dont really have a choice either way. I just wish my freaking car could go one month without fucking up. Im so sick of all the problems that i just want to get a new car but i dont have the money for all that right now. Ughhh. It makes me sooooo frusterated!!
Other than the whole money issue lifes pretty good. I have a WONDERFUL girlfriend who doesnt listen to what other people have to say about the age difference b/t her and I. She cares about me SO much and loves me more than i thought anyone ever could again. She says things all the time that make me feel like im worth something. She is just an all around wonderful amazing person to be with who loves me for who i am and isnt trying to change me. Now before anyone starts trying to 'lecture' me or 'preach' to me, i KNOW people are going to have a different opinion of me if i choose to continue this lifestyle. I knowww my family may disagree or completely dispise the fact that i am with a girl and i am IN LOVE with her. However, i also know that if they truely love me, theyll love me just the same now as they always have. Everyone has their own opinion and i will listen to them but that doesnt mean im going to change who i am or stop doing what im doing to please others. Ive done that wayyyy too much in my life and i decided a while ago to stop. If I spend my whole life trying to do everything the way everyone else thinks it should be done, ill NEVER be happy. So this is me, its who I am, and if anyone has a problem with it (not saying they do) but they will either learn to deal with it, or quit talking to me. (Speaking family wise). I know ive dated a girl before but i never felt for her the way i feel about Lisa. Anyways im just rambeling now b/c ive heard too much shit from my dad and sister about how our other family members would feel about this and honestly, i could care less. If they disown me thats their problem.....anyways, im gone.
~♥~Amanda~
Other than the whole money issue lifes pretty good. I have a WONDERFUL girlfriend who doesnt listen to what other people have to say about the age difference b/t her and I. She cares about me SO much and loves me more than i thought anyone ever could again. She says things all the time that make me feel like im worth something. She is just an all around wonderful amazing person to be with who loves me for who i am and isnt trying to change me. Now before anyone starts trying to 'lecture' me or 'preach' to me, i KNOW people are going to have a different opinion of me if i choose to continue this lifestyle. I knowww my family may disagree or completely dispise the fact that i am with a girl and i am IN LOVE with her. However, i also know that if they truely love me, theyll love me just the same now as they always have. Everyone has their own opinion and i will listen to them but that doesnt mean im going to change who i am or stop doing what im doing to please others. Ive done that wayyyy too much in my life and i decided a while ago to stop. If I spend my whole life trying to do everything the way everyone else thinks it should be done, ill NEVER be happy. So this is me, its who I am, and if anyone has a problem with it (not saying they do) but they will either learn to deal with it, or quit talking to me. (Speaking family wise). I know ive dated a girl before but i never felt for her the way i feel about Lisa. Anyways im just rambeling now b/c ive heard too much shit from my dad and sister about how our other family members would feel about this and honestly, i could care less. If they disown me thats their problem.....anyways, im gone.
~♥~Amanda~