i keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
hmm...been a while. havent had much to update about. been kind of slow lately.
theres nothing to say. nothing exciting has gone on in my life. i believe its because i dont have anyone. well, taylor, yeah. but no one else really. tha only two people ive chilled with and have even made an attempt to chill with me are allison and chelsea...not ( Read more... )
im sorry that i'm a smart ass about niki and brad. but i just feel that niki is a bad influence for you, as cool as she is. i have nothing against her. and it just seems like youre spending all of your time with her. believe me babe, if i got any of your calls, i would be glad to chill. caitlin, i dont have voicemail so i dunno what the deal with that was. i am happy youve made more friends and i am happy for you that youve found someone that makes you happy. i really am. i was reluctant at first that youre dating brad, but only because he hurt me TWICE and i did NOT want that to happen to you, because i care about you so much. and about niki. i like her, i really do. she's just too wild and im worried that you'll be like that and it'll get out of control, and i dont want that. i care about you way too much. remember how i feel about you caitlin. you're by far the BEST friend ive ever had. you're my twin. you're my turtle. i miss that. you've had the greatest impact on my life that a friend to me could ever make. and it slipped away really quick, i guess thats why i was like that. i got jealous. and im really sorry. if you can find it in your heart to maybe forgive me. i think life would be better for me. because, believe me, it's empty without you..and melanie. i dont even know her. but the things you told me about her and about how you didnt like her a lot and how you were hesitant with her too gave me a bad feeling about her. i dont really know her to dislike her. so, i dunno whats up with that. but yeah...i really am sorry. just hope you know that. if you told me about how i talk about them i'd stop. you should know how i am. i speak my mind and i dont care who hears it. i'm a bitch, and i know i am. and i've learned to accept it. i just hope you will too.
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