Patience again
Patience!
Rarrrrrrrrrrr.
Crap I don't like the feeling of sinking into one depression after another, getting one devastating result after another. I'm tired of facing failures. I need some elevating results, some achievement for me to assure myself I'm not a consummate idiot I think I am right now. It's simply dismaying walking out of some stupid tests which your teachers/schoolmates/parents told you are pivotal in deciding your future knowing quite well you've succeeded again in being an utter failure. It's not like you haven't studied or worked hard... sometimes things just don't work out and you really wanna poke a long stick up to heaven to knock on God's door and ask him WHY.
Oh yes. There must have been something wrong with your exam techniques! Why did you stare at one question and have allowed a princely 5 minutes to pass before you could conjure up some vague idea of what it's talking about? Seems like we have a classic example of mental retardation here. And must you miskey instructions into your graphic calculator a million times before it gives you the right answer you want? It is most unfortunate, but looks like on top of apparent cognitive disabilities your motor funtions are impaired as well!
Maybe I need to rethink where I should position myself. I should stop thinking very conceitedly that with my meagre abilities I could, with hardwork, be the best I once thought I could be. I should just take a step back and do what I can do and be very contented with whatever I can give myself. If I'm someone who cannot do better than submitting unfinished exam papers almost every single time, then so be it?
Okay this entry is getting too angsty. Anyhow, all these angst will have to be pushed aside after a while by more tests and whatnot coming up.
Rarrrrrrrrrrr.
Crap I don't like the feeling of sinking into one depression after another, getting one devastating result after another. I'm tired of facing failures. I need some elevating results, some achievement for me to assure myself I'm not a consummate idiot I think I am right now. It's simply dismaying walking out of some stupid tests which your teachers/schoolmates/parents told you are pivotal in deciding your future knowing quite well you've succeeded again in being an utter failure. It's not like you haven't studied or worked hard... sometimes things just don't work out and you really wanna poke a long stick up to heaven to knock on God's door and ask him WHY.
Oh yes. There must have been something wrong with your exam techniques! Why did you stare at one question and have allowed a princely 5 minutes to pass before you could conjure up some vague idea of what it's talking about? Seems like we have a classic example of mental retardation here. And must you miskey instructions into your graphic calculator a million times before it gives you the right answer you want? It is most unfortunate, but looks like on top of apparent cognitive disabilities your motor funtions are impaired as well!
Maybe I need to rethink where I should position myself. I should stop thinking very conceitedly that with my meagre abilities I could, with hardwork, be the best I once thought I could be. I should just take a step back and do what I can do and be very contented with whatever I can give myself. If I'm someone who cannot do better than submitting unfinished exam papers almost every single time, then so be it?
Okay this entry is getting too angsty. Anyhow, all these angst will have to be pushed aside after a while by more tests and whatnot coming up.