On HCCO Interactions
I'm being lag now the same way as I had been lag for almost the entire year - I'm going to write about HCCO interactions, which happened a week ago.
The day after interaction I was aching all over the place thanks to the numerous times (>25 at least) I climbed the stairs for game briefing and carrying of game equipments and intruments. But all I was feeling was this great sense of accomplishment because interaction was much of a success! I was initially a bit worried my game would not be well received since it's quite a common kind of game almost every interaction/orientation event tend to use and people would not be too excited by it. I cannot say everyone who played liked the game, but at least the response was much better than I had anticipated. Although at times I needed to shout to get the attention of the participants (sometimes failing to grab their attention even by doing so), I was happy there wasn't the sian silence that I had feared. So sucking on strepsils during the debrief session after the interaction, I was brimming with contentment.
And I must say I was touched by the amount of effort everyone put in for this interaction. The planning, the writing of script, the rehearsals, the selection of xing kong over other songs... if it all looked random I must say that it definitely wasn't. Like
hanamichi_1989 I was touched during xing kong that day too. Like he had put it -
"i guess all our different xing kongs, all our different stories of syf, fused into one. fused into a hcco story. a story that may have just began and needs all of our effort to build on it."
And while I'm on SYF I really wonder how much time I could spend on it next year since the lessons I chose to take seem to clash very badly with CO pracs. I wonder if going to CO once a week could be enough, and even if I would be allowed to do that and partcipate in SYF I don't think that would be fair to CO members who would be more committed to CO. And while I'm on being "committed" to CO, I just realised I haven't attended many CO activities other than practises (I didn't stay for dinner after interaction, I didn't go for the chalet, and I didn't and will not be able to attend any CIP performances CO had put up or is going to put up). Like Hong Fei's line in the skit says, CO isn't something we can just let go of so easily because there are so many friends in CO we'll never want to lose touch with. But just how much longer are my friends going to be tolerant of my absence and how much longer are the friendships going to last if I couldn't be there time and time again?
While staying at home having lots of time to myself I thought about how many friends I have already lost. I remember when I was in lower sec I had strongly believed in the fact that friendships can never be taken for granted and need constant maintenance. However, as I grew older it seemed that I had become less persistent in the maintenance of my friendships. Overwhelmed with academic tasks and the sense of urgency to grab opportunities that had come my way in an almost disturbing eagerness to boost my portfolio, pragmatism seemed to have sucked away the pleasure in spending time with friends doing "unconstructive things" like laming about.