College in Maryland?
So last night I got back from Maryland. I was there for the past couple of days, visiting colleges--Goucher College and McDaniel College. Both are small liberal arts schools that are good for Sociology and not very well known in the Northeast. Goucher had been at the top of my list based on what I'd read about it, but the campus was very... dreary and depressing, kinda dingy, and I didn't have a good feeling about it. McDaniel was great, though. Even though I went into it in a horrible mood after Goucher, I really liked the campus and the buildings were beautiful and lively even though there weren't any students there. I had a good feeling about it and the tour, led by a student, was very informative and made me want to go there. So, as of right now, McDaniel is at the top of my list, but I've only seen two schools so far. I don't really want to visit any more because I'm still not very into this whole college thing... but I know I should, or I could end up somewhere I don't like. I'm going to Connecticut with my friends for a couple of days in August, so we'll see how that goes. And we're also going to look at a couple of schools in Massachusetts, even though I hadn't originally planned on staying here. Also, I wanna apply to Tufts even though my mom said I won't get in. I probably won't, because my GPA went from a 3.7 to a 3.28, but I want to apply anyway. I won't be crushed if I don't get in.
I'm going to the movies with Bryan tonight. =) We're doing really really well and I'm so happy about it. I didn't get into this relationship thinking it would turn into anything, but it has. I don't expect us to stay together for years, get married, and have a life together, but I am trying very hard to keep a good, healthy, fun relationship and we'll see where it goes from here. Anyone who knows Bryan would think I'm a total retard for thinking this, and maybe I am--the thought that none of this is what it seems is always in the back of my mind--but I'm gonna go with it. Why ruin or miss out on something good just by being hesitant? I'm only 17, afterall.
So... I'm feeling pretty ok with life right now. Physically, I haven't been feeling well at all, but I dunno what's going on with that. I'm having a good summer vacation with my friends, the love life is fine, Senior year and college are in the near future, which is nervewracking but I haven't had any kind of rushing or stress to deal with so far. I'm just taking things as they come and getting through it. I want to have a relaxed Senior year. That doesn't mean I'm going to slack off, because I don't want to take finals in addition to two AP tests at the end of the year, but I want to keep up with my work and keep a good attitude. This is the last year of high school and even though it DOES matter, it doesn't REALLY matter when you think about what it is compared to college. Why stress out the last year of high school when it's almost over?
Ok now I'm just rambling 'cause I don't have anything else to do. I'm in such a good and productive mood that I'm going to go find something to do. Maybe laundry... I would exercise but I don't want to have to shower and do my hair again for tonight. Laundry and straightening up my room sounds good...
Kbye.