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I hate life so much right now. Everything about it. I don't know what to do. I stayed home from school today. I just couldn't do it. I'm done.
I need to think of something to do after high school, that isn't college, that will get me somewhere in life. I'm serious when I say I don't want to go to college. I don't care if people say it's a totally different expirience from high school and that I'll love it. I don't fucking care. I don't want to spend any more time in a classroom, listening to lectures, studying, or stressing out about assignments. I'd rather be moving on with life, having fun, falling in love, finding a husband, and settling down with kids. I know it won't be all fun and games. It's hard to try and start a life right out of high school, but I want to try. I don't care if we don't have money for everything we want. People do fine without a college education. You just need to be smart financially and happy. I honestly believe I'll be fine without college, I just need to think of something else to do, even if it means starting out at a low-paying job and having to work my way up. I know I want get a top job without a college education, but I don't care. I don't want a job that is boring and takes up all of my time. And, if I really wanted to when I grow up, I can always go to college then. I'd rather go when I want to than waste money on it, hating every second of it.
Fuckfuckfuck.
I need to think of something to do after high school, that isn't college, that will get me somewhere in life. I'm serious when I say I don't want to go to college. I don't care if people say it's a totally different expirience from high school and that I'll love it. I don't fucking care. I don't want to spend any more time in a classroom, listening to lectures, studying, or stressing out about assignments. I'd rather be moving on with life, having fun, falling in love, finding a husband, and settling down with kids. I know it won't be all fun and games. It's hard to try and start a life right out of high school, but I want to try. I don't care if we don't have money for everything we want. People do fine without a college education. You just need to be smart financially and happy. I honestly believe I'll be fine without college, I just need to think of something else to do, even if it means starting out at a low-paying job and having to work my way up. I know I want get a top job without a college education, but I don't care. I don't want a job that is boring and takes up all of my time. And, if I really wanted to when I grow up, I can always go to college then. I'd rather go when I want to than waste money on it, hating every second of it.
Fuckfuckfuck.