"You need to pick five guys...."
THe subject comes from a very interesting conversation that me and Jenny had tonight (well, this morning at 2:15am). God knows why were up so late, being that we both danced in Dance Marathon for 12 hours last night. Yeah, that's right. From 8pm to 8am I danced. Well, actually, daylight savings time is the best and we only had to dance 11 hours because of the time change. What a good time it was! Really, honestly I had a blast. So let's update on the last two days.
Saturday started off terrible with the conversation I have previously talked about in the journal before this. But things looked up when my friend Cliff picked me up in his Jeep and took me out for some Doozies and then off to the park to do some relaxing. I was really stressed and he totally helped me get some of it off my mind. After he dropped me off, me and Jenny went to Dragon (the first I have had this semester...I know, I know terrible) and then it was off to Dance Marathon. So much fun. I got to hang out with my fun sisters, wear some fun things (like a tiara) and hang out with the fun guys from Sigma Chi. Actually, I had the most fun with Zach and Kyle out of all of them....they love Positive Pants almost as much as 902 B does! And Paul did such a great time putting it all together, I was so proud of him. Oh, and I got hit on by a freshman boy who thought I couldn't be any older than him. Too bad he was so young, he was cute. And the best part of the whole night...we found a baby Positive Pants! So 8am finally rolled around and I crashed out.
Sunday: Ok, so I thought today would be a hard day for me. Not only was I running on about 4 hours of sleep, but today would have been some type of day to celebrate with the ex-boy. So I thought I would be an emotional wreck to be honest. But I wasn't...not even once! The day started with me getting up at 1:30. Then I got ready and headed out with Jenny, Beth, Suz, Sarah, and Katie to Yell Like Hell. It was a lot of fun! And not only that...in total Greek Week points we are in first as of right now. I'm pretty happy about that. After that, we all went to the house for gift exchange for the new babies. Steph love her stuff and she got me the cutest bear, some candy, and best of all....a new Sigma shirt! But this one is great because it is something I wanted for a long time and I didn't even tell her that I wanted it. She just got it for me. Steph is such a good addition to our tree and I'm so proud of her.
Then when we got back to the B, Beth had a present waiting for me. She knew that the last month or so has been really hard on me. So she bought me a bag of Double-Stuffed Oreos (my favorite cookie ever) and wrote me this really sweet card. I know she cares about me and loves me, but it was so nice for her to do that. I'm really lucky to have her in my life. It was what I needed to make the day ok. After all that it was time to make props...which look great so far by the way. Then we went to watch Sigma Chi play volleyball. A good time even though they didn't get the win this time (terrible final call by the ref). Then it was home to watch Suz tap dance in the kitchen and Sarah and Liz make up a dance to Redneck Woman in the living room. After that I explained volleyball to Jenny and then we finally crawled downstairs to go to bed. Which I have not done yet and it is 3am. Grr....and I have to be up soon to do homework, which I am wondering if I should do now. Probably not. I'll just get up in the morning to work on it!
Anyway, I guess I am just really proud of myself today. I am starting to see that I deserve more. And I'm really starting to be ok with the idea that he isn't going to be in my life. The doubts that he had are suddenly coming to me. Not enough to be perfectly ok, but enough that when I get sad I can think about those things. I guess that is enough deep thought for this journal. It's off to bed...or at least try to be off to bed.
Saturday started off terrible with the conversation I have previously talked about in the journal before this. But things looked up when my friend Cliff picked me up in his Jeep and took me out for some Doozies and then off to the park to do some relaxing. I was really stressed and he totally helped me get some of it off my mind. After he dropped me off, me and Jenny went to Dragon (the first I have had this semester...I know, I know terrible) and then it was off to Dance Marathon. So much fun. I got to hang out with my fun sisters, wear some fun things (like a tiara) and hang out with the fun guys from Sigma Chi. Actually, I had the most fun with Zach and Kyle out of all of them....they love Positive Pants almost as much as 902 B does! And Paul did such a great time putting it all together, I was so proud of him. Oh, and I got hit on by a freshman boy who thought I couldn't be any older than him. Too bad he was so young, he was cute. And the best part of the whole night...we found a baby Positive Pants! So 8am finally rolled around and I crashed out.
Sunday: Ok, so I thought today would be a hard day for me. Not only was I running on about 4 hours of sleep, but today would have been some type of day to celebrate with the ex-boy. So I thought I would be an emotional wreck to be honest. But I wasn't...not even once! The day started with me getting up at 1:30. Then I got ready and headed out with Jenny, Beth, Suz, Sarah, and Katie to Yell Like Hell. It was a lot of fun! And not only that...in total Greek Week points we are in first as of right now. I'm pretty happy about that. After that, we all went to the house for gift exchange for the new babies. Steph love her stuff and she got me the cutest bear, some candy, and best of all....a new Sigma shirt! But this one is great because it is something I wanted for a long time and I didn't even tell her that I wanted it. She just got it for me. Steph is such a good addition to our tree and I'm so proud of her.
Then when we got back to the B, Beth had a present waiting for me. She knew that the last month or so has been really hard on me. So she bought me a bag of Double-Stuffed Oreos (my favorite cookie ever) and wrote me this really sweet card. I know she cares about me and loves me, but it was so nice for her to do that. I'm really lucky to have her in my life. It was what I needed to make the day ok. After all that it was time to make props...which look great so far by the way. Then we went to watch Sigma Chi play volleyball. A good time even though they didn't get the win this time (terrible final call by the ref). Then it was home to watch Suz tap dance in the kitchen and Sarah and Liz make up a dance to Redneck Woman in the living room. After that I explained volleyball to Jenny and then we finally crawled downstairs to go to bed. Which I have not done yet and it is 3am. Grr....and I have to be up soon to do homework, which I am wondering if I should do now. Probably not. I'll just get up in the morning to work on it!
Anyway, I guess I am just really proud of myself today. I am starting to see that I deserve more. And I'm really starting to be ok with the idea that he isn't going to be in my life. The doubts that he had are suddenly coming to me. Not enough to be perfectly ok, but enough that when I get sad I can think about those things. I guess that is enough deep thought for this journal. It's off to bed...or at least try to be off to bed.