Where I belong.
Lately I have been looking back at the past few months and I have felt like a failure yet I have managed to look like I have succeeded. Since I took this past semester off and I planned on just working full time, things have been good. I don't have to worry about any of the school stuff with stupid classes at odd times, not having any money. Having weekends and nights off so my Jeff and I can hang out. I miss all the comotion of classes. I miss the note taking and studying. Me being someone that if you knew me knew I wasn't into all of that.
I couldn't be happier with the rest of my life until I think about how I am doing stuff with school. I wanted to take some classes this coming semester, but they just don't seem like they are going to fit into the cards. I have been catching up on bills a such from last year and I just don't have the cash for it right now.
I try to keep myself busy with everything else. Getting frustrated at the 2 and 3 yr. olds I work with day in and out that I am helping raise (since their parent's don't do jack shit) Doing as much stuff as I can with my youth group and Jeff's. Trying to keep my own faith alive. Running a Confirmation group with Jeff for my youth minister.
Needless to say my life is going pretty great, but I feel the emptyness inside with school. This is supposed to be my senior year. I still have a couple years till graduation, but in terms of that I still feel kind of like a failure.
I hope that all is going well with my friends that are still at CMU and working hard. I miss you all. Living at hone isn't the greatest. Hopefully soon I will be back up there. Where I belong.
I couldn't be happier with the rest of my life until I think about how I am doing stuff with school. I wanted to take some classes this coming semester, but they just don't seem like they are going to fit into the cards. I have been catching up on bills a such from last year and I just don't have the cash for it right now.
I try to keep myself busy with everything else. Getting frustrated at the 2 and 3 yr. olds I work with day in and out that I am helping raise (since their parent's don't do jack shit) Doing as much stuff as I can with my youth group and Jeff's. Trying to keep my own faith alive. Running a Confirmation group with Jeff for my youth minister.
Needless to say my life is going pretty great, but I feel the emptyness inside with school. This is supposed to be my senior year. I still have a couple years till graduation, but in terms of that I still feel kind of like a failure.
I hope that all is going well with my friends that are still at CMU and working hard. I miss you all. Living at hone isn't the greatest. Hopefully soon I will be back up there. Where I belong.