I've got balls...
For those of you that don't know it, I told my parent's about my tattoo. I can't believe it myself. It kind of just came out. Corey was up here visiting Emily and my parent's just got home from their 10 day camping trip in the UP and Emily had gotten her belly button pierced, long story short, Corey made a joke about Em having a tattoo and my mom looked at me and asked do I have one? And so instead of lying to her, I told her the truth. I told her that I have one, where it is, didn't physically show her it, but she will see it soon. I explained to her what it is of. My dad only had one thing to say...your the one that has to live with it the rest of your life.
That's right, I am the one that got it. I got it for a reason and I am damn proud of it. =) I love my tattoo and it means something significant to me.
I still haven't enrolled at Mott. I am slacking hard core. I don't know what is so hard, all I have to do is call CMU and have them send my transcripts to Mott. But I don't want to do it. I think it is the fact that I would be making that final step towards living at home. Not only have I been living here all summer and finally have a job in Fenton, but now I have to actually go to school down here. It makes it more real that I am not going back to my lovely CMU. It is hard. I don't know what to think most of the time. I keep telling myself I am not a failure and that sometimes you just have to take a few steps back to go forward. But at the same time I want to be up at Central with all my buddies and go to classes on campus and study in the library with my coffee from Java, or at Kaya (the best place in the world!!). It just can't be reality. It just can't.
On the good side of things, Jeff and I are doing amazingly. Everyday is better then the next and it is great. He is going away for a long fishing weekend with his dad, uncles, and grandpa somewhere outside of Ontario. It will be good for him to get away and for us to have some time apart. I love spending time with him, but I love my alone time too. He would say the same thing. But all in all I am going to miss him extremely.
I haven't felt like this for anyone in a long time. When I was with Mikey it was great and all, we had a lot in common and he made me laugh, but he brought out a side of me that I didn't like. I was stressed a lot and things that didn't bother me before bothered me. When I am with Jeff he makes me smile just by looking at me. When we are together we know that if we have nothing to say we still can just take in the moment. We have this phenomenal connection and bond that no one can break. When I am with him, he makes me want to strive to be a better person. He makes me want to learn new things and get back into shape. When I was with Mikey I talked about it a lot, but never did anything. Now with Jeff, I have been doing laps in the pool and tommorrow I am going to start doing my Denise Austin DVD again. It's like he puts this extra strength in me that I haven't felt since high school. I am telling ya, it feels good. I have more energy, I am eating healthier, I don't ever drink really. It is just all around good for me. He is such an amazing person. I don't know what I would do without him. And if he is making good changes like this in me so soon, I can't wait to see the long term effects.
Well...I think my bed is calling me and 6 a.m. is going to get here before I know it. G'night all. Sleep tight.
That's right, I am the one that got it. I got it for a reason and I am damn proud of it. =) I love my tattoo and it means something significant to me.
I still haven't enrolled at Mott. I am slacking hard core. I don't know what is so hard, all I have to do is call CMU and have them send my transcripts to Mott. But I don't want to do it. I think it is the fact that I would be making that final step towards living at home. Not only have I been living here all summer and finally have a job in Fenton, but now I have to actually go to school down here. It makes it more real that I am not going back to my lovely CMU. It is hard. I don't know what to think most of the time. I keep telling myself I am not a failure and that sometimes you just have to take a few steps back to go forward. But at the same time I want to be up at Central with all my buddies and go to classes on campus and study in the library with my coffee from Java, or at Kaya (the best place in the world!!). It just can't be reality. It just can't.
On the good side of things, Jeff and I are doing amazingly. Everyday is better then the next and it is great. He is going away for a long fishing weekend with his dad, uncles, and grandpa somewhere outside of Ontario. It will be good for him to get away and for us to have some time apart. I love spending time with him, but I love my alone time too. He would say the same thing. But all in all I am going to miss him extremely.
I haven't felt like this for anyone in a long time. When I was with Mikey it was great and all, we had a lot in common and he made me laugh, but he brought out a side of me that I didn't like. I was stressed a lot and things that didn't bother me before bothered me. When I am with Jeff he makes me smile just by looking at me. When we are together we know that if we have nothing to say we still can just take in the moment. We have this phenomenal connection and bond that no one can break. When I am with him, he makes me want to strive to be a better person. He makes me want to learn new things and get back into shape. When I was with Mikey I talked about it a lot, but never did anything. Now with Jeff, I have been doing laps in the pool and tommorrow I am going to start doing my Denise Austin DVD again. It's like he puts this extra strength in me that I haven't felt since high school. I am telling ya, it feels good. I have more energy, I am eating healthier, I don't ever drink really. It is just all around good for me. He is such an amazing person. I don't know what I would do without him. And if he is making good changes like this in me so soon, I can't wait to see the long term effects.
Well...I think my bed is calling me and 6 a.m. is going to get here before I know it. G'night all. Sleep tight.