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so...I almost called Matt like 10 times yesterday. I don't like feeling this way. Sometimes I am completley content and happy. Other days I feel miserable. I start to feel lonely, and I really shouldn't because I have so many amazing people in my life. I wonder if this feeling will ever stop. Or will I feel like this forever? I have come to the conclusion that I really don't like being single. Maybe it's because I haven't been for almost 4 years. I really don't know. At the same time I have been the most confident I have ever been in a long time. I truly feel good about myself. I find myself getting ready in the morning, and actually attempting to look put together. Before I really didn't. It's weird because before I always made sure everything was in it's place as far as my room, and other organization like that. But on the outside there were some days I looked completley rediculous! Now I look around my room and can barely see the floor, but most of the time I attempt to be put together on the outside. That probably means nothing, but I have definitley seen a change. well i should probably attempt to be productive today and stop procrastinating.