Who am I to you?
I often wonder what people think about who I am, because on the surface, I seem very serious, yet I feel like there's so much more to me. People have made comments about how I'm so serious, and that I need to relax. I was talking to a good friend earlier, and she said that I seem to be able to care so much, but sometimes I can express it in such a serious manner that many who don't know me well see it as simple advice or just basic thoughts. It all makes me wonder about if people can see that part of me, or if I'm just all work and no play to them.
I also think in the past, I've driven away some potential dates because of this facade I put forth. I've had times in the past where I've given a compliment to a girl I really would like to know better, and it comes acrossed more of as a pure evaluation. (Well I guess it doesn't help that I drop compliments to girls I don't have feelings for as well, and have a FAR easier time complimenting them) Honestly I wish there was a way for me to know who is/could be interested in me, instead of the idea of me dating being a big joke to so many people around here. Who knows, maybe the idea of me dating in Carbondale is laughable because there's some cute future flute major headed for UNT or OU (or one of the other schools lower on the list)
I miss things like taking that special girl to dinner, or fixing her one at my place, supprising her with a new arrangement of flowers (possibly when she least expects it, like in school or whatnot), asking/being asked to walk around the ponds (Something at CMU) under the light of a full moon, or looking into her eyes after we both fall asleep attempting to watch a movie. I seem though to want to know who "she" is before I even ask her out though. Not too comfortable with asking out girls I don't know. I guess I'm just "love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it."
I also think in the past, I've driven away some potential dates because of this facade I put forth. I've had times in the past where I've given a compliment to a girl I really would like to know better, and it comes acrossed more of as a pure evaluation. (Well I guess it doesn't help that I drop compliments to girls I don't have feelings for as well, and have a FAR easier time complimenting them) Honestly I wish there was a way for me to know who is/could be interested in me, instead of the idea of me dating being a big joke to so many people around here. Who knows, maybe the idea of me dating in Carbondale is laughable because there's some cute future flute major headed for UNT or OU (or one of the other schools lower on the list)
I miss things like taking that special girl to dinner, or fixing her one at my place, supprising her with a new arrangement of flowers (possibly when she least expects it, like in school or whatnot), asking/being asked to walk around the ponds (Something at CMU) under the light of a full moon, or looking into her eyes after we both fall asleep attempting to watch a movie. I seem though to want to know who "she" is before I even ask her out though. Not too comfortable with asking out girls I don't know. I guess I'm just "love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it."