old subject, new me
so, I want a man...not a boy, a man. It's silly I know, but I just miss having someone there to talk to. I miss having someone there just to hold me when I need them. I am very much an affectionate person and I miss that kind of comforting, safety kind of physical touch. And I feel like I'm in a place, where I'm strong enough in myself and in my God to be able to have that healthy Godly relationship.
I know it's silly, cause God gives you the desires of your heart, so I know it will happen...I just get antsy sometimes. Especially when I see guys being of the world and treating girls so badly(I'm sorry, but I will not respond to mindless messages online about my physical appearance). And especially when I see the right relationships all around me. I don't want a guy who just says I'm hot, I don't want a guy who tells me he "wants" me...I want a man who is a man of God, I want a man who will be the leader in the relationship, I want a man whom I can build up and be his shoulder, I want a man whom I can respect and show him that i respect and value him, I want a man who will be there when I need him, I want a man who is not afraid to go by the Bible, I want a man who won;t be afraid to pray with me or read the Bible with me, I want a man who will think I'm pretty inside and out(cause I've had that onesided relationship). Sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on, cause there is so much that wants to be heaped up on me.
I have so many things that want to pull me apart. but I know God has the best for me...I know God is my strong tower, and I know God is awesome and the best man:) I love my Daddy, so I'm waiting for a guy who will return my attentions and not make me feel like I'm not good enough or again I'm not what they want(have had that many times before). I don't need another guy to tell me I'm awesome, but then just stop talking to me after they've found a pretty girl to be their girlfriend. My emotions don't work like that.
I'm not hard to please, I just want something real.
ok, sorry for the rant...I just got to thinking and Satan can use that against me. And this has probably scared many guys away, hehe...oh well, at least I like me and my Daddy loves me:)
-don't worry about tomorow, tomorrow has enough to worry about itself(thanks Dave for listening to at least part of my stuff tonight)
-God bless you all:)
I know it's silly, cause God gives you the desires of your heart, so I know it will happen...I just get antsy sometimes. Especially when I see guys being of the world and treating girls so badly(I'm sorry, but I will not respond to mindless messages online about my physical appearance). And especially when I see the right relationships all around me. I don't want a guy who just says I'm hot, I don't want a guy who tells me he "wants" me...I want a man who is a man of God, I want a man who will be the leader in the relationship, I want a man whom I can build up and be his shoulder, I want a man whom I can respect and show him that i respect and value him, I want a man who will be there when I need him, I want a man who is not afraid to go by the Bible, I want a man who won;t be afraid to pray with me or read the Bible with me, I want a man who will think I'm pretty inside and out(cause I've had that onesided relationship). Sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on, cause there is so much that wants to be heaped up on me.
I have so many things that want to pull me apart. but I know God has the best for me...I know God is my strong tower, and I know God is awesome and the best man:) I love my Daddy, so I'm waiting for a guy who will return my attentions and not make me feel like I'm not good enough or again I'm not what they want(have had that many times before). I don't need another guy to tell me I'm awesome, but then just stop talking to me after they've found a pretty girl to be their girlfriend. My emotions don't work like that.
I'm not hard to please, I just want something real.
ok, sorry for the rant...I just got to thinking and Satan can use that against me. And this has probably scared many guys away, hehe...oh well, at least I like me and my Daddy loves me:)
-don't worry about tomorow, tomorrow has enough to worry about itself(thanks Dave for listening to at least part of my stuff tonight)
-God bless you all:)