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it's the tail end of the day..
i'm tempted to slump over in my chair and pass out on my desk. i don't even think anyone would notice. sure, maybe a phone call or two would go unanswered. but in all actuality... there's only a couple people left in the office and none of them are going to come up front and check on me. tina is gone for the day. i am still not okay with things. each day that passes is one day closer to her moving. i want her to be happy. but, i'm just.. i'm gonna fucking miss her. work won't be the same. nor will much else.
i'm going to have burritos with b tonight. he fixed my computer. whatta champ.
i foresee myself drinking a considerable amount of jager tonight. i do not know if i will partake in the earlytimes. call me what you will, but i am just not a whiskey-like girl. [althoughmytriptohollywoodwouldsuggestotherwise]
i miss my family a lot. i still can't believe that my mum came down for a whole weekend and we didn't fight once. she actually made me feel good. she complimented me. she loved me. she supported me. it was the most surreal feeling. not that she doesn't love me. we just communicate so poorly. at least i'll be spending thanksgiving at home after all.. so i'll get to see the family before they go on their 'gone forever and not taking amber' vacation that they're going on. BASTARDS!
i want a naked juice right now. so bad. i want to believe that you cared. at some point. but then again.. i want a million bucks, too. and i don't see myself getting any of those..so why am i bitching?
i'm excited about tonight.
my life is back on the road to being chill. slowly, but surely. i can't let this destroy me. no matter how much i want to. it can't have that power over me.
...though i love you and
my body it leaks like a siv.