Life's a bitch
So why does life suck? Only because I woke to the horrific realization that my uncle, Samir, died last night. He lived with us for 5 years, and he was the most curteous, well-mannered person I have ever met. He would have done anything for us or anyone he knew. So my parents looked through 4 years of phone bills to try and find the number to his brother in Israel. When they called Samir's brother, Topheet, was shocked and apologized profusely for laying this "burden" on us. Can you believe that? His brother dies and he feels soooo bad that he can't send money and can't be here to take over the arrangements. That's just the kind of genuine-hearted people they are. See, in Israel on the west bank where Topheet is, they are boarded up and under Israeli law. The Arabs can't go ANYWHERE. Not even to the hospital, if they need to go to the hospital then they just die at home. They can't even go to work. Topheet put all his money in his tile business which is now gone since he can't work. He told my dad, "I'm so sorry I can't send any money but I can barely feed my children. They wouldn't let me leave even if I had the money." Of course, that was in Arabic. There are checkpoints there and no one is to leave or come into the west bank. So children, women, men all die in the most horrific pain since they can't see a doctor. So when Arabs are judged for hating Jewish people, these are the reasons. And when I bitched about Katie, this is the root of my dislike for her. She has it sooo much better and she doesn't even appreciate it. That kills me because my family is going through emmense suffering and when I tried to tell her about my darkest horrifying memory from Syria, she blocked me saying that she didn't want to hear it because it was too painful for her. What the fuck have I been living with since 7th grade. Anyway, that's simply why I don't like her amoung other reasons. So I just needed to vent and write this down.