Conversations with my 19 yr. old self
This week hath been a long one. Well, it's been a long couple of weeks, in actuality. July has proved to be a Bear Month. I wonder what August will be like?
I've been working 5 days a week...sure maybe 5-6 hrs. a day, but every little bit helps. Worked nearly the entire time Grant was at ComiCon, too. The Dude got to stay here, and I hardly saw him. *sighs* my poor kitty guy. He misses us so. But, he gets to chase the Fatty and eat lots of catnip.
Watched "Planet of the Dead" with Phillip last weekend, and loved it. Cannot wait to rewatch S.4 and then watch Torchwood with Shawn. Phillip already watched the last TW special, I believe. & the vid of David T. kissing John B.? Bloody hot that is. Rarrrr...
Ginourmous tea leaves in my tea. This is definitely a tea that wants a teapot, not a strainer ball thingy. Ahh well. mmm...Fortnum & Mason...*drewls*
Quick Recap: Wine tasting with Shawn's 'rents was a blast, even with the tipsy convos concerning Shawn & Mine's "wedding." We've been watching a lot of teevee, ala dvd of course. Having seen SBUX Grrl twice in the last two wks, I've been giddy to the point of delirious, but it has made me work faster, lol. Shawn actually got to see her, which made me happy. I didn't jump away from him, but I did panic. "Sorry, am I killing your game," quoth the Shawn. ;-) Boys.
I'm dying to see "The Time Traveler's Wife!"
I am worried about Daniel. His surgery is this coming weds.
which brings us back to where we were in the title...sort of.
Sue has a new beau--happily in love, trying to get preggers, and married. Huzzah!
Kristine and Keiri have been hanging out a lot at Coffee Society...and have run into an interesting fellow...who made K fangs...for $50, of course.
hmmm...
sounds familiar, ehh? back to that in a moment.
Gretta sent me an adorable photo of Emma. I have to email her that I got it. Both she and Candice have asked me about Tiah in the last two weeks.
Candice, who is loving Chicago, was online the other day. We talked but briefly, but I am leaving my IM open more often now just in case she's on. I miss her so.
Troy's possibly met the love of his life...and from her photos, she seems sweet and is incredibly beautiful..I've got to call him.
Michele has met someone, as well...I'm being much more of a snot about that than I should but she's forgiven me. ;) He seems like a good guy--I just want them to take it slow. However, slow for me and slow for michele are two different things, but it will work out. She is going to two weddings with him, in Boston, next month. Meeting his entire family. They've known each other about as long as Troy's known his lady love. But...Who Am I To Judge? I am just going to be the Devil's Advocate, and that is all.
Oh, and Michele just got the CS doubled. BOOYAH!
I've been feeling like I've got a cold for about a week, on and off. And maybe it was the stomach flu? Or that could have been an anxiety attack, that I am still recooping from today...who knows? Acursed stomach!! Stay inside my body where you belong! *shakes fist*
the new CTHULHU film was actually rather good...despite Tori Spelling. & what's with the squid off the coast of San Diego??? http://www.cthulhu-themovie.com/
So yeah...back to me ten years ago.
A recent turn of events, as well as just standard Carla Pondering, has brought up the past.
As embarrassing as that is, it is also very funny. I am highly curious about this. Am I still the same person I was? Have I returned to that Girl of 19, doing mostly good, but some silly things?
I definitely have no money, and am going to school full time, albeit more seriously this time around. I am not single, with the Men Folk, as I was then...mayhaps I shall meet my Lady Love, aussi? It seems to be that kind of summer, to be sure.
Life is cyclical. Am I making the same mistakes as I did then? I know that there are things that I am supposed to have finished that were started back then. Yes...I am a slacker.
It's just beginning that's for sure. Oi...who knows what will happen when we go to see DM, ehh? I have to buy my ticket this coming paycheck...oh I must!
Whom I was then is whom I'd like to be in some ways, but not entirely. I think I was more outgoing then--but that may just be hindsight. And there's a difference between seeking attention and getting off one's ass.
I think what I miss the most is the companionship I had then with a group of people. With adulthood comes responsibility. We were drunk & high off life, then...now we drink and get high, and have a hard time leaving the house. We also regret it the next day when We go to work, lol.
Speaking of alcohol, I've got to slow down. I've been drinking way too much of late. Simmer down now, Carla, simmer down.
So to my 19 yr. old self, I say, be strong. Nothing ever really changes, but you will enjoy yourself, no matter what.
I've been working 5 days a week...sure maybe 5-6 hrs. a day, but every little bit helps. Worked nearly the entire time Grant was at ComiCon, too. The Dude got to stay here, and I hardly saw him. *sighs* my poor kitty guy. He misses us so. But, he gets to chase the Fatty and eat lots of catnip.
Watched "Planet of the Dead" with Phillip last weekend, and loved it. Cannot wait to rewatch S.4 and then watch Torchwood with Shawn. Phillip already watched the last TW special, I believe. & the vid of David T. kissing John B.? Bloody hot that is. Rarrrr...
Ginourmous tea leaves in my tea. This is definitely a tea that wants a teapot, not a strainer ball thingy. Ahh well. mmm...Fortnum & Mason...*drewls*
Quick Recap: Wine tasting with Shawn's 'rents was a blast, even with the tipsy convos concerning Shawn & Mine's "wedding." We've been watching a lot of teevee, ala dvd of course. Having seen SBUX Grrl twice in the last two wks, I've been giddy to the point of delirious, but it has made me work faster, lol. Shawn actually got to see her, which made me happy. I didn't jump away from him, but I did panic. "Sorry, am I killing your game," quoth the Shawn. ;-) Boys.
I'm dying to see "The Time Traveler's Wife!"
I am worried about Daniel. His surgery is this coming weds.
which brings us back to where we were in the title...sort of.
Sue has a new beau--happily in love, trying to get preggers, and married. Huzzah!
Kristine and Keiri have been hanging out a lot at Coffee Society...and have run into an interesting fellow...who made K fangs...for $50, of course.
hmmm...
sounds familiar, ehh? back to that in a moment.
Gretta sent me an adorable photo of Emma. I have to email her that I got it. Both she and Candice have asked me about Tiah in the last two weeks.
Candice, who is loving Chicago, was online the other day. We talked but briefly, but I am leaving my IM open more often now just in case she's on. I miss her so.
Troy's possibly met the love of his life...and from her photos, she seems sweet and is incredibly beautiful..I've got to call him.
Michele has met someone, as well...I'm being much more of a snot about that than I should but she's forgiven me. ;) He seems like a good guy--I just want them to take it slow. However, slow for me and slow for michele are two different things, but it will work out. She is going to two weddings with him, in Boston, next month. Meeting his entire family. They've known each other about as long as Troy's known his lady love. But...Who Am I To Judge? I am just going to be the Devil's Advocate, and that is all.
Oh, and Michele just got the CS doubled. BOOYAH!
I've been feeling like I've got a cold for about a week, on and off. And maybe it was the stomach flu? Or that could have been an anxiety attack, that I am still recooping from today...who knows? Acursed stomach!! Stay inside my body where you belong! *shakes fist*
the new CTHULHU film was actually rather good...despite Tori Spelling. & what's with the squid off the coast of San Diego??? http://www.cthulhu-themovie.com/
So yeah...back to me ten years ago.
A recent turn of events, as well as just standard Carla Pondering, has brought up the past.
As embarrassing as that is, it is also very funny. I am highly curious about this. Am I still the same person I was? Have I returned to that Girl of 19, doing mostly good, but some silly things?
I definitely have no money, and am going to school full time, albeit more seriously this time around. I am not single, with the Men Folk, as I was then...mayhaps I shall meet my Lady Love, aussi? It seems to be that kind of summer, to be sure.
Life is cyclical. Am I making the same mistakes as I did then? I know that there are things that I am supposed to have finished that were started back then. Yes...I am a slacker.
It's just beginning that's for sure. Oi...who knows what will happen when we go to see DM, ehh? I have to buy my ticket this coming paycheck...oh I must!
Whom I was then is whom I'd like to be in some ways, but not entirely. I think I was more outgoing then--but that may just be hindsight. And there's a difference between seeking attention and getting off one's ass.
I think what I miss the most is the companionship I had then with a group of people. With adulthood comes responsibility. We were drunk & high off life, then...now we drink and get high, and have a hard time leaving the house. We also regret it the next day when We go to work, lol.
Speaking of alcohol, I've got to slow down. I've been drinking way too much of late. Simmer down now, Carla, simmer down.
So to my 19 yr. old self, I say, be strong. Nothing ever really changes, but you will enjoy yourself, no matter what.