kinda bummed

[cmightymouse2]

i know this is too early to really know..but i don't think i'll get an internship for the summer..which really bums me out..i went to so much effort this past semester..i had four interviews which i tried my best..and i've already got turned down by 2 of them..what more do i have to do?? i have 3.7 cumulative GPA..i'm in like 5 honor society type things..and i think that i'm fun to talk to and stuff like that..so i'm not really sure what more they're looking for..it kinda pisses me off they dont even give a reason..i think i'm going to email all the ppl i interviewed with to ask what i can improve upon for next time..since i really don't know..if i get turned down for all four internships i'm going to volunteer to do ppl's tax returns next semester..i got an email from the illiois CPA society..cuz i'm a student member..haha..and they were asking for volunteers to do low income family's tax returns..and they said they'd train ppl if they didn't know how..so i think that if i don't get an internship..volunteering to do this will be helpful for next time..b/c i will have some experience with tax returns..but that's the only thing i can think of that may help..

murphy is stressed out about the same thing i am..except he only had one interview and he really really wants to work there..me on the other hand..i just want a chance anywhere that'll give me one..murphy is an exceptional student and person..so i bet he won't have much of a problem getting an internship..but because he's being so exclusive he narrows his chances of nailing it..idk..this is so confusing..what do you do if you get turned down by everyone?? wouldn't that make you feel like you suck at life?! i know that's how'd i feel..

i hope murphy and i find out soon..just so we can stop worry so much..