sunday night
i havent slept for 3 days now and im on the verge of lashing out. ive stopped hearing most sounds and my vision has turned to a red glaze of something that looks like a rain coated windshield. somehow i push on through life. somehow i can not move to other rooms or sleep in a dark room. there is a chill in the air and every light in the home is on.
friday wasnt unpleasnt if only for the fact that i can not remember friday.
saturday was like an endless agonizing noun here. saturday started with a meeting with associates. after this i put the thought into sleep but managed only to waste an hour looking into the deep green lines of the time on a combination clock/phone. there is no phone cord connected to the phone. at this second. at this very second, i almost crushed a pack of perfectly good peanut butter and crackers but the urge to continue typing seems to have saved them for now. later saturday, after the completion of a movie viewing, i went downstairs and was greeted by 90 mile per hour winds which blew 7" thick tree branches at me which then exploded upon my face and torso as my invincible body came into contact with them. i went inside clifs house. i sit down. the power goes out. there are candles lit. many candles. its still dark and red. the power returns. we go to purchase a new computer monitor and are pleased to see we are the only building that has power restored. a silent smile is within me when we return seeing that the same is true. others will suffer that night while we are at ease. the world tends to work to my advantage on most occasions. my desire to knife several people is locked and caged the remainder of the night and all was well. i left and sat in a dark room for 12 hours.
today i have consumed in no order: 2 eggo waffles, a taco hot pocket, gushers, code red, pringles potato chips, hot chocolate, bryars vanilla ice cream, hersheys chocolate bar, 4 cups of apple cinnamon cheerios, 2 oatmeal little debbies, 1 strawberry and cream little debbie, an ibc rootbeer, a frostie rootbeer, a & w rootbeer, mug rootbeer, strawberry toaster strudel, buttery toffee crunch n munch, an fuji apple, miniature blue berry muffins, a mint hersheys kiss.
friday wasnt unpleasnt if only for the fact that i can not remember friday.
saturday was like an endless agonizing noun here. saturday started with a meeting with associates. after this i put the thought into sleep but managed only to waste an hour looking into the deep green lines of the time on a combination clock/phone. there is no phone cord connected to the phone. at this second. at this very second, i almost crushed a pack of perfectly good peanut butter and crackers but the urge to continue typing seems to have saved them for now. later saturday, after the completion of a movie viewing, i went downstairs and was greeted by 90 mile per hour winds which blew 7" thick tree branches at me which then exploded upon my face and torso as my invincible body came into contact with them. i went inside clifs house. i sit down. the power goes out. there are candles lit. many candles. its still dark and red. the power returns. we go to purchase a new computer monitor and are pleased to see we are the only building that has power restored. a silent smile is within me when we return seeing that the same is true. others will suffer that night while we are at ease. the world tends to work to my advantage on most occasions. my desire to knife several people is locked and caged the remainder of the night and all was well. i left and sat in a dark room for 12 hours.
today i have consumed in no order: 2 eggo waffles, a taco hot pocket, gushers, code red, pringles potato chips, hot chocolate, bryars vanilla ice cream, hersheys chocolate bar, 4 cups of apple cinnamon cheerios, 2 oatmeal little debbies, 1 strawberry and cream little debbie, an ibc rootbeer, a frostie rootbeer, a & w rootbeer, mug rootbeer, strawberry toaster strudel, buttery toffee crunch n munch, an fuji apple, miniature blue berry muffins, a mint hersheys kiss.