battle tonight...might go play with the big boys...get the shit kicked out of me. and them
getting stronger...got to. january is almost here. itll make it ten years...i think. yea, ten whole years. wow... god i miss him...i wish it was me instead of him sometimes. i just miss him...cant cry. promised i wouldnt...especially on that of days. 12th i gotta wear colors...the flag, his mark of life...and the ones who took it. i hate them...i hate them a lot. and yet still there in my blood...i am family to them. i am apart of what they are no matter how i look at it. i hate it..but its true. it explains why i alwase ge invovled in there shit. it sucks...but i cant fight it. im sorry cam...im sorry.
me and rachel are good now..very good. i miss her alot. i need t talk to her...i will. soon. TRISHA CALLED!!! that was um..interesting. she just yelled a lot...but i dont care. FUCK BUDDIES??? what the hell is she getting at? i dunno anymore..screw her!! she knows of all people that im..well yea..but anywase thats beyond the point. god im so angry with her...grr.shes being such a bitch...
still missing rachel....need to distract myself...hmm. i dunno..i have two boys staying at my house...its kinda odd. i have to watch what i do know..im so use to being alone here...and there the are. i dunno...might go play later tonight. supposed to be a battle latter...haha. god i rember those..i was one of the few to get in it and stand up each time..and i got the scars to prove it.might go to it...i use to love those things..until i got involved with...n/m. yea she might be there...it might stur stuff up. i dunno i wanna battle so bad...i need the cash. hmm....i dunno i figure out how ill get there later.
lynz s gonna pierce my tounge!!! ahh..i am so afraid of her. my tounge?? god i thought it was bad enough the first time...i dunno. i need to think about it. i reall dont want to ..but it would be nice to have it back. hmm...i dunno.
fuck!!! its almost five...gotta get ready...
me and rachel are good now..very good. i miss her alot. i need t talk to her...i will. soon. TRISHA CALLED!!! that was um..interesting. she just yelled a lot...but i dont care. FUCK BUDDIES??? what the hell is she getting at? i dunno anymore..screw her!! she knows of all people that im..well yea..but anywase thats beyond the point. god im so angry with her...grr.shes being such a bitch...
still missing rachel....need to distract myself...hmm. i dunno..i have two boys staying at my house...its kinda odd. i have to watch what i do know..im so use to being alone here...and there the are. i dunno...might go play later tonight. supposed to be a battle latter...haha. god i rember those..i was one of the few to get in it and stand up each time..and i got the scars to prove it.might go to it...i use to love those things..until i got involved with...n/m. yea she might be there...it might stur stuff up. i dunno i wanna battle so bad...i need the cash. hmm....i dunno i figure out how ill get there later.
lynz s gonna pierce my tounge!!! ahh..i am so afraid of her. my tounge?? god i thought it was bad enough the first time...i dunno. i need to think about it. i reall dont want to ..but it would be nice to have it back. hmm...i dunno.
fuck!!! its almost five...gotta get ready...