rough week
Well I have to say this past week hasn't been too great. I kind of feel like if i went outside and screamed on the top of my lungs that I would feel much better, nothing has gone all that wrong but then again nothing has been all that right. Friday..although i was doped up on caffiene all day was continuously terrible until like midnight...when everything seemed fine until the next day... I guess everything is okay now..i guess...i don't know if I am just down and notice little things more or what..
But anyway, I was feeling much better today but then I found out that Annette had died. It was expected to happen soon last week actually but it's still really sad for me. I saw Johnny yesterday and he was fine, smiling even. I really think that it was a huge weight lifted off their shoulders because she had been in pain for soo long. It is still terrible though, she was 41, and such a good person. I just always have to wonder why such good people have to get cancer and die when there are such assholes that get to stay here on earth. It really just isn't fair. I remember going to their house everyday in the summer..back when Haley and I were best friends..that wasn't too long ago really. Her mom was awesome and I always wished that I had the kind of relationship Annette and Haley had with my mother. She just did so much, it's really sad that this whole thing had to happen to her. However, it's better off this way than for her to be in pain...even soo she didn't deserve any of it..not the cancer or anything. I can't even fathom the thought of my mother not being able to see me graduate from high school or get married or graduate from college. Stuff like this that happens really makes me think, I mean everyone knows i'm not a big religious person and I believe in God really i do..but of all people..there are so many criminals..people that do not deserve to live and they lead healthy lives....dying of an old age..it really just makes me doubt a lot of stuff.
But anyway, I was feeling much better today but then I found out that Annette had died. It was expected to happen soon last week actually but it's still really sad for me. I saw Johnny yesterday and he was fine, smiling even. I really think that it was a huge weight lifted off their shoulders because she had been in pain for soo long. It is still terrible though, she was 41, and such a good person. I just always have to wonder why such good people have to get cancer and die when there are such assholes that get to stay here on earth. It really just isn't fair. I remember going to their house everyday in the summer..back when Haley and I were best friends..that wasn't too long ago really. Her mom was awesome and I always wished that I had the kind of relationship Annette and Haley had with my mother. She just did so much, it's really sad that this whole thing had to happen to her. However, it's better off this way than for her to be in pain...even soo she didn't deserve any of it..not the cancer or anything. I can't even fathom the thought of my mother not being able to see me graduate from high school or get married or graduate from college. Stuff like this that happens really makes me think, I mean everyone knows i'm not a big religious person and I believe in God really i do..but of all people..there are so many criminals..people that do not deserve to live and they lead healthy lives....dying of an old age..it really just makes me doubt a lot of stuff.