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Wow, well hello all you fine young sexy people. How we doin today!?!?!?!?
*pauses and hears crickets chirp*
Wow, that was....saddedning. Anyways, Im here, alive, kinda well I suppose. This past week has been pretty rough on me. The previous entries probably will give you more insight to it all. I've been doin alot of thinkin lately. About life, death, health, religioin. Just plainly looking within my soul for an answer to it all. What I found, I cant explain very well. Just the fact that I have decided a change needs to happen in my life. What change is that? I have no clue.
Ive been considering taking a different outlook on the whole religion thing possibly. Not saying Im going to not be agnostic anymore. Cuz I still have many problems with organized religion. Just thinking doing some reasearch. Enlightening myself on different ways of life. "Get my learn on" if you will. (a big wet kiss to whoever can guess what thats from)
Im also thinking about making a phone call to these Vocational Rehab people that the social worker as the dialysis clinic gave me.They help people in the situation Im in get back into thw rok force. FInding companies that will work WITH you and your illness. Instead of like most that just say "Well, we dont wanna really fool with this guy". Sad, yes I know. Unfortuante as well. Yet it happens every day. They also help you get into schooling if you want. In some cases they will even help with the payment of tuition or whatever. Many of you know Im BIG into stereos in cars. I've been considering going to school and getting my degree in installation. Then I could go to Best Buy, Circut City or somewhere like that and get a job doing what I love to do. You have to have a degrre and be certified in case you didnt know. Hell who knows. Maybe I can get that done and Adam and I can finally get our lil buisness going for real.
So I went to Nizzle's last night. Hung with he, Rza and Jason's punk ass. That was great. I have soo much fun hangin with those guys. Jason too, even if he is a steamy pile of infected spooge. Being around them made my week I swear. They got my mind off all this stuff going on with me at the moment. I also had a KILLER time playin with Niz-O's daughter Megan. We was playin with pony's, and all sorts of fun stuff. I swear kids are just totally awesome, especially Megan. Their all soo sweet and innocent. Have not a care in the world. Its just awesome. They got alot of energy too. Too much for my old ass.
On my previous posts, as far as the replys go.
Neal: Your my homie. My dawg. My straight up ho son!. Naw man in all seriousness I swear we was seperated at birth. Even though you did pop out a whole month before me. ANYwho man. Your always there for me when I need you & I appriciate it tons man. I love you bro.
Sarah: Your my big sis. Always there for me as well. Your another I can always count on to be there when I need you. Thank you and I love you.
Ally: You too are always there for me (do I seem repetitive). Im always here to listen for you, as well as you are for me. Sometimes I just dont understand ya, but hey. Thats what makes us, us right? Thanks for bein there for me Ally Kat.
Wow, did I leave anybody out? Ohhh yeah, I remember now! I saved the ultimate BEST for last.
Andrea: The short time we spent together when I visited was spectacular. When I was with you it was like nothing else in the world mattered. Nothing at all. I love just holding you, stroking your hair. I love just straight up talking to you. Your here for me, Im there for you. You are my soul mate. I love you ma' and hopefully I never, ever loose you.
Ok, so I think Ima end this post now. Before I keep going and make more tears go down my face. To all of you who may be reading this. Dont feel bad if I didnt mention you. For I love you all and and proud as fuck to call all of your friends. You know who you are.
This is the big bad Soopa C, signing out.
C
*pauses and hears crickets chirp*
Wow, that was....saddedning. Anyways, Im here, alive, kinda well I suppose. This past week has been pretty rough on me. The previous entries probably will give you more insight to it all. I've been doin alot of thinkin lately. About life, death, health, religioin. Just plainly looking within my soul for an answer to it all. What I found, I cant explain very well. Just the fact that I have decided a change needs to happen in my life. What change is that? I have no clue.
Ive been considering taking a different outlook on the whole religion thing possibly. Not saying Im going to not be agnostic anymore. Cuz I still have many problems with organized religion. Just thinking doing some reasearch. Enlightening myself on different ways of life. "Get my learn on" if you will. (a big wet kiss to whoever can guess what thats from)
Im also thinking about making a phone call to these Vocational Rehab people that the social worker as the dialysis clinic gave me.They help people in the situation Im in get back into thw rok force. FInding companies that will work WITH you and your illness. Instead of like most that just say "Well, we dont wanna really fool with this guy". Sad, yes I know. Unfortuante as well. Yet it happens every day. They also help you get into schooling if you want. In some cases they will even help with the payment of tuition or whatever. Many of you know Im BIG into stereos in cars. I've been considering going to school and getting my degree in installation. Then I could go to Best Buy, Circut City or somewhere like that and get a job doing what I love to do. You have to have a degrre and be certified in case you didnt know. Hell who knows. Maybe I can get that done and Adam and I can finally get our lil buisness going for real.
So I went to Nizzle's last night. Hung with he, Rza and Jason's punk ass. That was great. I have soo much fun hangin with those guys. Jason too, even if he is a steamy pile of infected spooge. Being around them made my week I swear. They got my mind off all this stuff going on with me at the moment. I also had a KILLER time playin with Niz-O's daughter Megan. We was playin with pony's, and all sorts of fun stuff. I swear kids are just totally awesome, especially Megan. Their all soo sweet and innocent. Have not a care in the world. Its just awesome. They got alot of energy too. Too much for my old ass.
On my previous posts, as far as the replys go.
Neal: Your my homie. My dawg. My straight up ho son!. Naw man in all seriousness I swear we was seperated at birth. Even though you did pop out a whole month before me. ANYwho man. Your always there for me when I need you & I appriciate it tons man. I love you bro.
Sarah: Your my big sis. Always there for me as well. Your another I can always count on to be there when I need you. Thank you and I love you.
Ally: You too are always there for me (do I seem repetitive). Im always here to listen for you, as well as you are for me. Sometimes I just dont understand ya, but hey. Thats what makes us, us right? Thanks for bein there for me Ally Kat.
Wow, did I leave anybody out? Ohhh yeah, I remember now! I saved the ultimate BEST for last.
Andrea: The short time we spent together when I visited was spectacular. When I was with you it was like nothing else in the world mattered. Nothing at all. I love just holding you, stroking your hair. I love just straight up talking to you. Your here for me, Im there for you. You are my soul mate. I love you ma' and hopefully I never, ever loose you.
Ok, so I think Ima end this post now. Before I keep going and make more tears go down my face. To all of you who may be reading this. Dont feel bad if I didnt mention you. For I love you all and and proud as fuck to call all of your friends. You know who you are.
This is the big bad Soopa C, signing out.
C