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And a big to all...............and to all a good night...
Capricorn December 21 - January 19
For the most part, you should notice that the past three weeks have brought more grounding and stability into your life, dear Capricorn. This sense of organization and analytical thinking will be challenged today, however, as your emotions well up inside you and insist that you take a more intuitive approach to whatever problem seems to be ailing you at this time. Use the power of your intense feelings to balance out the organized, rational approach that has been your primary mode of operation as of late.
Yeah i have noticed that these past couple weeks i've been more and more grounded and sure of what i want and my feelings. I've taken control of my life, and i'm starting to see things with different eyes. My parents are starting to sense my growing up, and have let me (slowly) go a bit.....I've never felt like this before, but i like it. I'm in a better mood for it, and I'm loving that.......
I dunno.............i think i'm falling in love..........it's so weird, and strange, and so unexpected, that it almost makes it sweet. I have no clue how the boy feels for me, but we're always having fun and laughing whenever we're together.........but there are 2 huge obstacles that lay between us, and one especially wears my heart down whenever i think about it.........i never thought that i'd ever say i was falling in love.........or, at least, not at this age...........so many (almost every single one) of my friends falls hard, says things they regret later, then back it up when it doesnt work out and lie to themselves and me.....i think its foolish, and i've always steered away from that action-that hope-that they all have.....and guard myself up. Building up my walls with each crush, until i've found it almost impossible for me to let loose with any guy and enjoy myself and not give him a different persona of myself........
,and, while i'm typing this.......i'm remembering that all my other ''thoughtful'' entries have gotten me in trouble with at least one of my friends.....but, whatever. And, i'm not online often anyways, and since i find it totally a waste of good time and energy and only get on because of a sense of duty to my friends.......forgive me for not having a MySpace or a Xanga.........i just dont care. I dont want one...it adds more time that i'm online and too much work to put into it (writing back to comments, posting things, etc)....cuze here works for me. I can post, and all of my friends can read it. Why should i write it again in another site? I hate spreading myself thin, and thats what i would be doing, and here you can get the full me. not the busy thinly-detailed entries that i'll write because i have a million other sites to update also............so enjoy. honestly, if i had the choice of what do do on a day home (and have nothing to do outside the home) i wouldnt get online. I'd watch TV or smthn...but wouldnt go into the computer room....at-tal!
So now for the really boring "lets run down what i've done since i've last updated"
* Painted the entire kitchen/living room..........(1/2 of an entire floor)........by myself. Did a wonderful job of it too, and feel very accomplished and proud of myself
* went through a red light w/o realizing there was a light there-all is okay though.
* MATT WORKS AT DOMINOS WITH ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-) oh so happy! It's awesome hanging out with him again...and i get to see him on Sunday till Tuesday when we go to DC for the 4th! WOOHOO!
* have eaten tons of food and still feel hungry (damn PMS)
* slept a bit too much, and too little. I have no idea how to relax. Honestly. I can't....ever. It's the natural Cappy in me. So maybe this summer i need to learn how to......
* talked to about zilch of my friend nor hung out with them (excluding the beach with jessie) and have enjoyed myself quite pleasantly without them.....(no offense to you guys, honesly. i need my time off sometimes)
well there you go. update on Caitlin. will hopefully update once i get back from DC with my brothers and Va Beach with my gurls.
and to all a good night