i was just shocked..and i shouldnt b..

[clydesfetish]

so i decided to b ur friend..and we were hanging out as a friend.. well so i did a favor for u..and u were dropping me off. it was ur way of letting me know u have someone else... i shouldnt let it get to me.. i moved on..and didnt even tell u.....but u rnt the one who was being mislead and made felt as if we had a chance.. all alone i was just a friend.. so it seems.. this is how uve made me feel now... i dont think i can do it... i always said id want u in my life forever....but having u make me feel like im wrong... i told u.. its ok if u have someone else.. cuz i am with someone else....and for u to call me later on...and say what u said.... i was trying to make u jealous.. i have pix to prove it.. i have text and emails that say it all....ur the one wrong my intention isnt to make u jealous....but to make u realize... u passed me on... for 2 years i was in love with u...and u dont no this...but i lost my job cuz of u... u had me in this state that i was soo depressed and the minute u called. i came running...and i cant do that anymore...i fucked up my life ....my life right now..is a mess... im at the point of getting kicked out....loosing my dog...and im sure my friends.. r sick of me holding on to u..... yes u were always around.. u even said it last nite...every free moment we had we were together... cuz i thought u were speacial...all u like to do is play games....and lead people on... at this point in my life.. even though all is failing and im jobless and cant seem to drop the drugs.... i have someone who tells me they love me.. who hugs and kisses me.. who shows me he is there for me... all u were around for was to play games... and i cant continue ur lil games....im not gonna listen to ur problems with this one...and hoppe ur gonna realize that im who u need.....i have my own man to do that for me... u went out of ur way to get us drugs.. who knows what favors u were doing behind my back while i was being ur lil puppet..but i am cutting the strings..and i wont allow u to control my moves... as hard as its gonna b... i cant stay around and listen to what could have been.. and how happy u r with someone else.. im glad u met someone else..to play games with.. but ur words last nite.. made me feel as if im the bad seed in ur life......and i really dont think i am..... "I'm not here for your entertainment

You don't really want to mess with me tonight

Just stop and take a second

I was fine before you walked into my life

Cause you know it's over

Before it began

Keep your drink just give me the money

It's just you and your hand tonight"