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[clve527]

i have to go to cuba
i mean i really have to because i am so selfish and i need to do something for someone
i need to travel there and help someone
i need to have purpose and want something
and sacrifice to have it because i have never wanted things like that

i live by this notion that money is so fucking concrete
i either have 500 dollars in my checking account
or i explode

i'm fucking young, right?
what am i fucking worrying all the time for?
i will graduate and get a job
and i might just be happy
maybe i'll write or teach or jump out of fucking airplanes
for a friggin living but i'll do something

but i have to go to cuba because otherwise i won't ever have wanted something and done something to get it
but there are sacrifices like seeing my best friends
and going 'home' for a week
but i have to, you know, i just have to do this
and if i can't i'm going to be so disappointed

i just need to commit to wanting something...